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I'm so ashamed of my verbal articulation that I am at most times too ashamed to write. Its possible that I'm not worried by using the wrong words. Perhaps I'm not comfortable jotting down my memories at this point in my life, because I'm too ambitious to be proud of them. I'm proud of a sentence every now and then. Sometimes it'll be something I've blurted out during mid-epiphany. I'm afraid that once I verbalize my memories, I might erase most the fog that keeps me afloat. Instantly, I could potentially lose my fucking mind. I've striven so hard to find it. To create it actually. I am now able to further improve myself at a faster rate, because I've singled out the challenge. Life is all about overcoming challenges. Life is all about self construction and especially now. Especially now that we've confirmed that the brain is plastic. Neurosynthesize your minds eye.