F E A R
(if you take the time to read this all, thank you)
theres an acronym for FEAR .. False Evidence Appearing Real
everyone has a fear everyone is afraid of something.
but when you stop and think about it what you are always most afraid of is the unknown.
fear of change.. is a huge deal for me, personally...
when i get comfortable all i want to do is be in my comfort zone.
even if i know that certain things ive gotten comfortable with in my life are no good and all they do is add negativity to my life.. i keep them around because its what i know.. its what im comfortable with.. and it leaves no room for fear of the unknown.
and so the saying goes.. always do what you are afraid of for it is the most worthwhile
so with that being said ive decided to do a major cleanup of my "friends" and i feel that a lot of people i have considered amazing people in my life for so long i was just giving them that title because ive gotten so "comfortable" with them being around that i got lazy and just would rather deal with the bullshit lies then face the reality of the situation and see that there was no use for this person to even be in my life at all and deal with the change of not having any sort of interaction with them at all.
i'm sick and tired of feeling like i am being taken for granted.
of feeling like my nice kind and understanding nature is being perceived as a weakness over strength.
i'm done feeling like certain people only care about me when there is something in it for them.
i'm done putting myself out there on display for you to see and then finding out everything youve portrayed yourself to be to me is a fucking lie.
so for some of you this is goodbye for good. and for some of you.. you will be seeing a brand new jenn.
i need to fix what is broken within myself.
i need to be okay without you.
i WILL be okay without you.
For a minute there I almost believed you
And I wanted to forgive you for everything you've done
And I could feel safe but miserable
In a familiar world of lies and misinformation
But then I remembered that everything you've ever said
and everything you've ever done
add up to more wrongs,
than could ever make a right
So don't try to talk to me
'cause a thousand Fuck You's would never be enough
So I'm only gonna say this once
Fuck You I'm never coming back
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in other news, saw 2 was absolutely amazing..
i am stoked on tomorrow.
♥ goodnight
theres an acronym for FEAR .. False Evidence Appearing Real
everyone has a fear everyone is afraid of something.
but when you stop and think about it what you are always most afraid of is the unknown.
fear of change.. is a huge deal for me, personally...
when i get comfortable all i want to do is be in my comfort zone.
even if i know that certain things ive gotten comfortable with in my life are no good and all they do is add negativity to my life.. i keep them around because its what i know.. its what im comfortable with.. and it leaves no room for fear of the unknown.
and so the saying goes.. always do what you are afraid of for it is the most worthwhile
so with that being said ive decided to do a major cleanup of my "friends" and i feel that a lot of people i have considered amazing people in my life for so long i was just giving them that title because ive gotten so "comfortable" with them being around that i got lazy and just would rather deal with the bullshit lies then face the reality of the situation and see that there was no use for this person to even be in my life at all and deal with the change of not having any sort of interaction with them at all.
i'm sick and tired of feeling like i am being taken for granted.
of feeling like my nice kind and understanding nature is being perceived as a weakness over strength.
i'm done feeling like certain people only care about me when there is something in it for them.
i'm done putting myself out there on display for you to see and then finding out everything youve portrayed yourself to be to me is a fucking lie.
so for some of you this is goodbye for good. and for some of you.. you will be seeing a brand new jenn.
i need to fix what is broken within myself.
i need to be okay without you.
i WILL be okay without you.
For a minute there I almost believed you
And I wanted to forgive you for everything you've done
And I could feel safe but miserable
In a familiar world of lies and misinformation
But then I remembered that everything you've ever said
and everything you've ever done
add up to more wrongs,
than could ever make a right
So don't try to talk to me
'cause a thousand Fuck You's would never be enough
So I'm only gonna say this once
Fuck You I'm never coming back
----
in other news, saw 2 was absolutely amazing..
i am stoked on tomorrow.
♥ goodnight