identity
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Originally uploaded by relaxingI think I need a new online handle. 'relaxing', my current favorite, is taken on two services I want to try out: twitter and tumblr. It might also be time for an update because my life has changed a lot in the past month, and in last 4 months, and the past 4 years. 4 years being the amount of time since I've been relaxing (literally -- I chose that name bathed in the shear relief I felt at graduating from engineering school in '04.)
I still am (or am trying to be) relaxing, I think I'll always (aspire to) be relaxing. The word I really wanted, in the late spring of 2004 and now, was 'calm', but that's taken everywhere. (I don't mind -- it's nice that there are so many calm people.)
But where to go from here?
I don't really want to take 'bieniosek' and besmirch my family reputation again, and tbieniosek applies to both my brother and father. I might take tbienios, which is my Solaris-mandated 8-character login at the office, but none of that is easy to tell someone when they ask you the name of your blog. And besides, it's boring.
It would be more fun to have something poetic, and possibly involving two words, something that references an idea or work of art I hold dear. But that brings me right back to the question of identity.
There's a grudge I've been harboring against the websites of banking related financial-type institutions, which is that to have an online account you have to fill out a ridiculous set of security questions ranging from Mother's Maiden Name (easy) to Place You Were Born (does that mean where was the hospital? or the town I grew up in?) to questions in the manner of What Is Your Favorite Movie, which I honestly have a hard time answering, because I'm not that good with movies, I have a hard time choosing favorites, and that sort of thing changes on a regular basis with me. I've actually had to go through a complex and invasive password reset process because I could not for the life of me remember what I had put as my favorite movie. You'd think I'd be smart enough to have it listed on my facebook profile or someth- HELLO BANKS? SECURITY FLAW HERE.
But my (least) favorite security question I've ever seen was, If I could do it all over again, I would be a(n)...
Creepy! (And that was for the benefits system at work!) But I've never been sure of who I am, so I have a hard time with those types of questions. (This is the reason I treasure the bits of self-knowledge I can gather from introspection or from others.)
So it all comes back to questions of identity. Shouldn't I have this stuff figured out by now? Maybe by the age of 30?
Who knows. But if you have any ideas for a Twitter name, I'm all ears.
I PROBABLY COULD HAVE KEPT THIS TO MYSELF =)