dear god

[relapsecultess]

dear god,
if there is a god,
if there was a god, i would pray
no, i would write a letter telling him i'm sorry
i'm sorry it worked out this way
unless you meant for me to hurt this bad, or cry this much, or be this sad
i'm sorry, i can't stop it
please take me away
i didn't mean to screw up so mnay times,
i'm sorry i couldn't control my life,
i'm sorry i couldn't be stronger when it came crashing down
i'm sorry i've tempted so many to hate,
i'm sorry i've always said your name in vain,
oh god, dear god, please forgive my lonley sole,
please take me and let me go
i can no longer fel the good beat of my heart,
i can't see through the sahdes of the dark
i can't feel anything that's not like knives,
cutting, and kneeding, at my insides
OH god, dear god, my sole's already dead,
please let me rest my lonely head,
please take pity on me,
lay me under the ground you'd be saving me,
take my breath, then my hand as i leave
oh lord! dear god, please let me free