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[relapsecultess]

Two years ago,
I couldn't do it anymore
Two years ago,
I know what I should've done
Two years ago,
I tried to be strong
Two years ago,
I stopped the gun,
I stopped it all before it started
Or so thats what i thought
I tried to let myself blend in
I thought thats what i got
I entertwined my life to mesh,
With thoes of who i cared
I may as well have stabbed myself
For all i can compare
I shouldn't have tried to be all strong,
I should have known it'd keep going on
I've figured a way to keep myself sane
for these two years i've cried my pain
And now i'm all dried up again
But i can't let that rain back in
My life seems to revert to it's old ways
With it's little unnerving horror plays
Scenes of steel and blood and tears,
Clouding my mind with it's old fears
This new chapter looks just like the last
But it won't end as fast
I can see the future,
Read between the lines
I know it won't turn out all fine
But that's O.K.
It's fine by me
I need to set me free
This all turned out a Goddamned mess
Keeping me in all this stress
I can't take this anymore
It's about to see the door
When the last blood hits the floor
I can't take it anymore