clammy bitch
I'm in such a horrible mood.
A few hours ago, I plummeted into memories of 3 years ago when I was in a constant state of loneliness and self-loathing. Having zero friends within 1000kms is literal hell. Some part in "two lovers in mexico" crushed me as if I actually 15. Just the pronounciation of a few words. It was so weird.
I realised why I was so depressed even before I moved to Sydney.
A at school, we weren't taught to think...only to listen and follow rules.
When I finally left, I had no sense of identity. but yeah whatever. boring.
I'm at work now. It's pretty shit. I've only taken shitty calls so far. idiots not knowing know where they are expecting me to know where they are. Yeah, i know where the canterbury senior center is.
I'm feeling pretty shitty. Before work, I sat by the pond and it was pretty nice.
I'm so glad cirtain people exist.
I'm not so glad cirtain people exist.
I feel like a loner at work/I am a loner. I sit on my own before my shift begins while everyone else stands together and smokes and when I do go over, everyone seems to go silent. I don't really have any friends...except people who work the graveyards...who I only see for 30 minutes at the end of my shift.
At least I have the internet.
When I was at home, I was trying to cheer myself up somehow which was kinda lame.
I opened all my windows and doors and sat in the sunrays. Then I put a colourful sheet on my bed. then I sat on my couch. Then I got too cold.
Cheer cheer cheer. Christmas cheer.
I think santa does exist.
A few hours ago, I plummeted into memories of 3 years ago when I was in a constant state of loneliness and self-loathing. Having zero friends within 1000kms is literal hell. Some part in "two lovers in mexico" crushed me as if I actually 15. Just the pronounciation of a few words. It was so weird.
I realised why I was so depressed even before I moved to Sydney.
A at school, we weren't taught to think...only to listen and follow rules.
When I finally left, I had no sense of identity. but yeah whatever. boring.
I'm at work now. It's pretty shit. I've only taken shitty calls so far. idiots not knowing know where they are expecting me to know where they are. Yeah, i know where the canterbury senior center is.
I'm feeling pretty shitty. Before work, I sat by the pond and it was pretty nice.
I'm so glad cirtain people exist.
I'm not so glad cirtain people exist.
I feel like a loner at work/I am a loner. I sit on my own before my shift begins while everyone else stands together and smokes and when I do go over, everyone seems to go silent. I don't really have any friends...except people who work the graveyards...who I only see for 30 minutes at the end of my shift.
At least I have the internet.
When I was at home, I was trying to cheer myself up somehow which was kinda lame.
I opened all my windows and doors and sat in the sunrays. Then I put a colourful sheet on my bed. then I sat on my couch. Then I got too cold.
Cheer cheer cheer. Christmas cheer.
I think santa does exist.