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ive been thinking about a lot of stuff and not all of it is so good. its weird how much i think about others. why do i change to fit a role? im really not so happy with myself. i dont know if im role changing again or if this is just me. whatever it is i dont like it.
i misbehave in class
and cheat
and i had an attidtude in english which i havent done in so long. i thought i was more mature now
shit, now im crying
some ppl told me i ramble and as much as i dont like to admit it, its true
how am i gonna be a great lawyer and become successful if im so awful
sometimes i think, do mentally challeneged people know theyre not smart?
ive always considered myself as smart. i know that sounds really arrogant but idk, im not trying to be. ive just heard that all my life
but what if im not
what if i dont get into smith or some other great college. what if i cant be a lawyer
they say man plans, god laughs. ive certainly planned. will god laugh?
tyler said i was sensitive and hes right. i know hes right. but he cant be right.
why am i f-in crying like a baby. and why am i sharing all of this. when i started a lj/xanga i decided im not gonna use it like a diary type thing. im gonna just share my day and stuff
so wtf am i doing
i think a lot of it is cuz of being at hhne. its like when the slaves were freed and then they didnt know what to do with it.
whatever
no, why do i say that word, whatever. its a stupid word for stupid ppl
idk, im gonna end this before i embarass myself further.
sorry
i misbehave in class
and cheat
and i had an attidtude in english which i havent done in so long. i thought i was more mature now
shit, now im crying
some ppl told me i ramble and as much as i dont like to admit it, its true
how am i gonna be a great lawyer and become successful if im so awful
sometimes i think, do mentally challeneged people know theyre not smart?
ive always considered myself as smart. i know that sounds really arrogant but idk, im not trying to be. ive just heard that all my life
but what if im not
what if i dont get into smith or some other great college. what if i cant be a lawyer
they say man plans, god laughs. ive certainly planned. will god laugh?
tyler said i was sensitive and hes right. i know hes right. but he cant be right.
why am i f-in crying like a baby. and why am i sharing all of this. when i started a lj/xanga i decided im not gonna use it like a diary type thing. im gonna just share my day and stuff
so wtf am i doing
i think a lot of it is cuz of being at hhne. its like when the slaves were freed and then they didnt know what to do with it.
whatever
no, why do i say that word, whatever. its a stupid word for stupid ppl
idk, im gonna end this before i embarass myself further.
sorry