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I was once asked "so you'd stay with someone just so they'd stay happy."
I said no but I've realized it's definitely true.
I've never left anyone when I should
And I've even once put my relationship on the rocks just to make someone else happy
I feel other people's pain too much. Always over my own
And yes I've always been willing to screw myself over
Settling for second best
I live in the past... and I live in the future
But I've always danced around the present.
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Pretty soon past present or future won't matter only reality. I'm going to break soon and it's going to be hard. I can feel it.
I'm going to be in town the next two weekends for kim and then steph's wedding. next week i'll be here wed until sat and then just the sat the following weekend. Another maid of honor... what an honor.... things like that make me feel worth while. Means I must have done something right.
Of course I was extracted from my family so I won't be seeing them.
This is such an emo post. Emo jen.
I said no but I've realized it's definitely true.
I've never left anyone when I should
And I've even once put my relationship on the rocks just to make someone else happy
I feel other people's pain too much. Always over my own
And yes I've always been willing to screw myself over
Settling for second best
I live in the past... and I live in the future
But I've always danced around the present.
-------------------------
Pretty soon past present or future won't matter only reality. I'm going to break soon and it's going to be hard. I can feel it.
I'm going to be in town the next two weekends for kim and then steph's wedding. next week i'll be here wed until sat and then just the sat the following weekend. Another maid of honor... what an honor.... things like that make me feel worth while. Means I must have done something right.
Of course I was extracted from my family so I won't be seeing them.
This is such an emo post. Emo jen.