happy birthday!
it's been ages since i last visited and posted here..i thought this lj wouldve been dormant and no longer exist and i nearly forgot my password but viola..it still is alive..and now that im here i cant think of anything to write about past stuffs.significant or not.or maybe, im not feeling it..but here's one thing..4 days from now, id be 28 and as far as i can tell, if ever id be in that phase of contemplating sooner or later..(you know, you cant help things like that to cross your mind whenever another number has added to your age.) "Wala pa rin akong asenso"
And i meant, not goin bigtime like some kind of hallucination (e.g. having my dream house, being some kind of doña etc.).im still attached to reality though. My dreams are simple for now. It's something i know i can achieve when i work hard..its not like i dont dream of something big..i do..i really do..but in the mean time, i just stick to what i can do overnight. You know, something that i can change whenever i have the desire and the motivation to do it in a snap.
These things that i complain about over and over..my career, my work, my frustrations, are still there..and the sad thing is..ill be a year older and i didnt do anything about it. And from now til next year, id still be feeling miserable and the next year, and the next year.. and worse, maybe id be feeling like this til i grow old and die.
Sure, people could say why- dont- you- decide- and- make- up- your- mind -and -do -something -about- it easily.
The truth is..i cant..for now..i am bound to it..And the word sacrifice would define it. If you havent come close to the word sacrifice then dont say it in front of my face. Because you wouldnt understand.
Oh well, there goes another birthday thought.
Im getting older so its better letting go of all your miseries..and...
*choke* staying resilient about it
***cheers***