stuck in my head
I'm a prisoner in my own brain some days, since most days I'm a prisoner in my own office, in the music building, in this school.
And lately, my brain has kind of been freaking me out.
I can't stop dwelling on the fact that I don't have a very good attitude about this job. I wake up every morning lamenting going into work, and get home from work wanting to stay home for the rest of my life. Right now I'm not sure if it's just the going-to-work blues, because I remember feeling this way about class too some days. Some being the operative word. With this, I don't ever want to go. It bothers me. Part of it could be that I'm still anxious since it is my first job and I'm inexperienced. I'm not sure. Oh hey, I finally have an interview for the full-time slot; that's nice. And yet compounds my anxiety because I know I am in no position to turn this job down, but it bothers me that I rarely look forward to it. Hopefully I just need to get more used to teaching and my environment.
We have a performance Friday morning for the Black History Month Assembly. My first performance as the choir director. Technically, it should be the second, but since the last concert was canceled, this is numero uno. The A Cappella choir is just doing a couple songs from their Christmas concert, so I've had to learn more than they have since they know the pieces already.
I forgot my school keys at home yesterday. That sucked, but I remembered them today!
In other news, Juliette starts her new job today at Treat Street. I'm going to go visit during her training. Treat Street rules, for those of you who haven't been there. It's got great ice cream and really great food. Especially their gigantic hot dogs is those delicious signature buns. So good! Lookin forward to that, and to Friday, because everyone loves Friday, and D&D on Saturday.
Tattooed Monk, here I come.
~Danny
And lately, my brain has kind of been freaking me out.
I can't stop dwelling on the fact that I don't have a very good attitude about this job. I wake up every morning lamenting going into work, and get home from work wanting to stay home for the rest of my life. Right now I'm not sure if it's just the going-to-work blues, because I remember feeling this way about class too some days. Some being the operative word. With this, I don't ever want to go. It bothers me. Part of it could be that I'm still anxious since it is my first job and I'm inexperienced. I'm not sure. Oh hey, I finally have an interview for the full-time slot; that's nice. And yet compounds my anxiety because I know I am in no position to turn this job down, but it bothers me that I rarely look forward to it. Hopefully I just need to get more used to teaching and my environment.
We have a performance Friday morning for the Black History Month Assembly. My first performance as the choir director. Technically, it should be the second, but since the last concert was canceled, this is numero uno. The A Cappella choir is just doing a couple songs from their Christmas concert, so I've had to learn more than they have since they know the pieces already.
I forgot my school keys at home yesterday. That sucked, but I remembered them today!
In other news, Juliette starts her new job today at Treat Street. I'm going to go visit during her training. Treat Street rules, for those of you who haven't been there. It's got great ice cream and really great food. Especially their gigantic hot dogs is those delicious signature buns. So good! Lookin forward to that, and to Friday, because everyone loves Friday, and D&D on Saturday.
Tattooed Monk, here I come.
~Danny