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so last night wasnt that bad.
came over to nathans, hung out with him and justin.
just chilled.
so im not sure if being in this relationship is right.
i was talking about it with justin.
with our work scheduals we dont see eachother, which i know is like not anyones fault.
but its not like she makes an attempt to see me.
and i know i've said that before.
but also just i dont know lately, i've been feeling like im losing all feelings i had for her.
I mean this is gonna make me sound like the biggest asshole ever.
but were also going to slow.
i always pick like tight people and i dont like it.
like im not saying HEY LETS HAVE SEX.
but more then kiss and like feeling up OVER shirt.
after 4 months, and she doesnt wanna go any farther for a long time.
i found out that last night when i tried going under, and she pulled my hand out lol.
YES THIS IS A LITTLE GRAPHIC PEOPLE U CAN STOP READING IF YOU LIKE.
so all in all, i dont know if i want to be with her.
plus as i've said before, i havent had a break since my best and most serious relationship.
So in saying all that, im a bit worried for tonight.
but were friends and we talk all the time.
oh thats another thing, while talking to ali is getting better, its still hard.
yet with other people its so easy.
ah confused,scared,excited lol arnt i crazy.
came over to nathans, hung out with him and justin.
just chilled.
so im not sure if being in this relationship is right.
i was talking about it with justin.
with our work scheduals we dont see eachother, which i know is like not anyones fault.
but its not like she makes an attempt to see me.
and i know i've said that before.
but also just i dont know lately, i've been feeling like im losing all feelings i had for her.
I mean this is gonna make me sound like the biggest asshole ever.
but were also going to slow.
i always pick like tight people and i dont like it.
like im not saying HEY LETS HAVE SEX.
but more then kiss and like feeling up OVER shirt.
after 4 months, and she doesnt wanna go any farther for a long time.
i found out that last night when i tried going under, and she pulled my hand out lol.
YES THIS IS A LITTLE GRAPHIC PEOPLE U CAN STOP READING IF YOU LIKE.
so all in all, i dont know if i want to be with her.
plus as i've said before, i havent had a break since my best and most serious relationship.
So in saying all that, im a bit worried for tonight.
but were friends and we talk all the time.
oh thats another thing, while talking to ali is getting better, its still hard.
yet with other people its so easy.
ah confused,scared,excited lol arnt i crazy.