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ok so I'm scared but I'm really happy and yet I don't know what to do, the right thing to do and the best thing to do I know what Jason wants but I'm not sure what I am want. I love Jason and I know he loves me back and I know he will understand what I want and still love me after, but I don't want it to hurt him by what I think is best. I'm not breaking up with him or anything I would never do that he is my soul mate. I can't talk to my father, he would kill me and I can't talk to my mom she will tell my father so there is no winning and I can't talk to most my friends I don't think they would understand its just so hard to have to think of what to do and to be thins scared about something, its just something I have to deal with I guess and I have to talk to Jason about.