Stop making a fool out of me
Where to begin? I guess I start with Saturday. Karah and I picked up Laura and went to David's gathering, and by the end there was me, Karah, Laura, David, Ape, Ryan, Tom and Jordan. We watched a few movies and drank a bit and smoked a bit, then Karah, Laura and Jordan went to the servo. Except that they were gone for two hours, and Laura and Karah had left their phones behind, and Jordan had switched his off. There was some speculation.
They got back around 4 am, I'd been asleep on a mattress at David's for about half an hour when they woke me up, and we went back to Jordan's. He and Laura had his bed, and Karah and I shared the futon. I think we got to bed around 4.30, after Karah and I couldn't stop giggling at an in-joke we share.
Karah told me the following morning what they got up to. Apparently they'd gone to the beach, and I don't really know all the details but it looks like Karah and Laura did in fact hook up, and I think Jordan got in there as well. As she was telling me this, I felt a mixture of emotions, some of which I still can't identify - jealousy, partly because I felt left out (I don't want to make out with Laura or Karah, just to clarify, I think I missed being included) and partly because... well, of course it's Jordan related but I don't even want to think about that.
I also felt a bit hurt, because Laura had asked Karah if she was going to tell me about it, and she said that if Karah didn't want me to know, then Laura wouldn't tell me either. So it's not exactly secret-keeping, but kind of like a conspiracy? I don't know. Maybe I'm just overreacting. I know that I felt weird, and that's the only thing I'm sure of.
Other things have happened in my life. I could talk about what I did today, but I'm not up to it. I just needed to get that off my chest. I'm also a bit envious of Karah - she's only been split up with Chris for like a month and a half and she's had sex with five different guys, not to mention a fair amount of hook ups. I guess it's been too long since I've had that kind of thing; just a case of the green-eyed monster. Sigh.
They got back around 4 am, I'd been asleep on a mattress at David's for about half an hour when they woke me up, and we went back to Jordan's. He and Laura had his bed, and Karah and I shared the futon. I think we got to bed around 4.30, after Karah and I couldn't stop giggling at an in-joke we share.
Karah told me the following morning what they got up to. Apparently they'd gone to the beach, and I don't really know all the details but it looks like Karah and Laura did in fact hook up, and I think Jordan got in there as well. As she was telling me this, I felt a mixture of emotions, some of which I still can't identify - jealousy, partly because I felt left out (I don't want to make out with Laura or Karah, just to clarify, I think I missed being included) and partly because... well, of course it's Jordan related but I don't even want to think about that.
I also felt a bit hurt, because Laura had asked Karah if she was going to tell me about it, and she said that if Karah didn't want me to know, then Laura wouldn't tell me either. So it's not exactly secret-keeping, but kind of like a conspiracy? I don't know. Maybe I'm just overreacting. I know that I felt weird, and that's the only thing I'm sure of.
Other things have happened in my life. I could talk about what I did today, but I'm not up to it. I just needed to get that off my chest. I'm also a bit envious of Karah - she's only been split up with Chris for like a month and a half and she's had sex with five different guys, not to mention a fair amount of hook ups. I guess it's been too long since I've had that kind of thing; just a case of the green-eyed monster. Sigh.