Feb 08, 2005 15:28
You know, there is no easy way to say this, but I will say it somehow, no matter how much hate I get from Meana or you!
Maybe you dont remember correctly, but who is the ONE person who has been with Yaminah since the day she walked into Gulf Elementary? Who is the ONE person who has been there for her thru EVERYTHING she has gone thru in the past 9-10 years? Who is the ONE person who knows about EVERYTHING in her life, not by snooping, but by talking to her? Who is the ONE person who has been there for here and watched her suffer thru your bs?
the answer, ME! I have always been there for her, and I have kept quiet long enough. Im done and sick of keeping my mouth shut. Yaminah asked me not to do this, but I am sick of not having my best friend. She has been my best friend for the past 9 1/2 years, I wont let you ruin our friend ship, I wont let you pull her away from me! I love her with all my heart, and yes, we both say that we have different best friends, but we will always be the BEST of friends.
When I was cutting myself, that day you came out and yelled at me and told me what kind of a "cock sucking moron"( I believe those were your words) Brett is and what kind of failure he is is the dayy that it all started. I dont know what you think about when u think, but I know you don't want Yaminah to be like me,she isnt. I've done drugs, I've smoked, she's always told me that she wouldn't do it and is mad at me fer it! She's never done the things I have ever. She wont ever be like me. But you also aren't giving her a chance to live! I know, shes ur daughter, but i dont care! She needs to be able to live her life with out u taking everything that means something to her away from her. With out snooping about her room. that is wrong in SOOO many different ways.
bbut u know what, most of all, i hate that u took her away from me! SHe wont walk with me, she wont talk to me she wont do ne thing with me just so she doesnt have to put up with ur BS! It's more than a month, she still wont talk to me. She wont stand up to you either. SHe is sooo outgoing at school, but she wont stand up and talk to the one person who should be a good influence on her YOU! She wont tell you to sit down and quit ur bitching and to stop being an ass! But I will! I dont care if you hate me, I dont care if you dont ever let me hang out with her, but u remember this: You will have that guilt in the back of ur mind forever, that you took away your daughters life, her best friend, her guy friends, what ever b/f's she's had, everything. Your a bastard and I want you to think about what kind of love you are showing her! You don't love her, becuase if u did, you would have enough trust in her to realize that she can have guy friends with out fergeting her love for you. If you havent noticed, I love my boyfriend with all my heart, I've liked many guys, i've dated many guys, but my love for my mom has not once changed becuase of them, neither has my love fer my dad.
I hope your happy, because you have exceeded on making my life the most miserable that it has ever been! I don't have a best friend ne more, I dont have some one to go to when I need help, I dont have ne one! I dont even know her ne more becuase she is never around me and when we are at school, we talk about SCHOOL!
I HATE YOU WITH THE BIGGEST PASSION AND I HOPE YOU TAKE ALL OF THIS INTO CONSIDERATION, I WONT KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT NE MORE, I WONT STOP AND NOT SAY WHATS ON MY MIND!