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Ya so life sucks then you die. so i guess the next step is...... Im so stressed out and fucked up that i dont even know what to do anymore. Im fucking losing my mind. Im moving out of Cheries house soon and i have no idea what i am going to do. I m 99.9 persent sure that im not going to have the money because i dont get to work much due to the fact that i dont have daycare for Adriel. Vicky says that she is working on getting subsidized but somehow i dont believe her. In order for me to do this id have to take Vicky to court which i dont have the time to do right now .So i guess that im just fucked. I have untill december 1st and i have no idea what im going to do if i dont start working more.
In addition things with me and Cherie didnt work out and we are no longer considering our selves a couple . However we are still acting the part .Everything is so messed up and confusing and stressfull and odd .
I dont think that Cherie understands how much i love her . She seem so cold to me now. I must have done something , but i have no idea what i did.
On the brighter side i am loving spending so much time with my son. Hes getting so smart and he's keeping me out of trouble .(not that i dont miss trouble) Hes putting words together and has loads of personality . Its absolutly stunning sometimes.
I really need to start getting out more . I hardly party or do anything anymore and that just sucks. Not that i have alot of time to do stuff , but i need to make some i think.
Im so nearvous i want to vomit or freak out or something.
In addition things with me and Cherie didnt work out and we are no longer considering our selves a couple . However we are still acting the part .Everything is so messed up and confusing and stressfull and odd .
I dont think that Cherie understands how much i love her . She seem so cold to me now. I must have done something , but i have no idea what i did.
On the brighter side i am loving spending so much time with my son. Hes getting so smart and he's keeping me out of trouble .(not that i dont miss trouble) Hes putting words together and has loads of personality . Its absolutly stunning sometimes.
I really need to start getting out more . I hardly party or do anything anymore and that just sucks. Not that i have alot of time to do stuff , but i need to make some i think.
Im so nearvous i want to vomit or freak out or something.