flat days
Todayyy, is alright so far. Last night! After seeing Dr. Becker (I am now off of lamictol and starting wellbutrin. i hope i don't flip out and beat people.) and Alé! Because she had therapy at the same time as I had my appt, I went back to Sarah's and we did that thing we do and then Chelsea came over, GREAT AND GOOD AND WEIRD, and we did that thing we do again, and Chelsea rolled us a lot of cigarettes because SAM WEBER is an ungrateful asshole and. IT WAS REALLY COOL. CHELSEA TOOK ME TO GET CHUBBY HUBBY ICE CREAM AND OREOS AT THE A&P. I can't believe she did that! AND that band, that she likes, named Gogol Bordello, is fucking funny as hell. It's like this guy singing in a Russian except in broken english like THE CAR WON'T START SO I PUT KEY IN, that's not a lyric but it's an example of something that COULD BE a lyric similar to the broken english in THEIR lyrics. WTF.
On a sadder, more narcissistic note, I got talked to yesterday about how my interminable sadness affects my friends and how I just bring everyone down when I hang out with people, like in the city on Saturday. I feel bad for them because they have to deal with my shit and I really wish that I could fix this problem so maybe I can be fun to hang out with again eventually. I'm really thankful that they are still hanging out with me even though I'm a downer. I'm really thankful that Alé is still putting up with it because I haven't been friends with her for very long at all. Like maybe two months. And Helen too. Cool. I love Sarah and she's been there for me through SO much shit. I love my friends and I'm really sorry that I bring you guys down. I'll try to do better.
On a sadder, more narcissistic note, I got talked to yesterday about how my interminable sadness affects my friends and how I just bring everyone down when I hang out with people, like in the city on Saturday. I feel bad for them because they have to deal with my shit and I really wish that I could fix this problem so maybe I can be fun to hang out with again eventually. I'm really thankful that they are still hanging out with me even though I'm a downer. I'm really thankful that Alé is still putting up with it because I haven't been friends with her for very long at all. Like maybe two months. And Helen too. Cool. I love Sarah and she's been there for me through SO much shit. I love my friends and I'm really sorry that I bring you guys down. I'll try to do better.