Homo In check
When I look at how my life is right now, it kinda feels like theres a void. I mean I just feel like theres something missing. I really don't know what though. I have amazing friends, my family loves me, and my job is taking care of me. Then there's john. He's the only thing in my life that could be better. However the void was there long before he came along. I recently found out that he has been questioning us for awhile now. Which is fine, but when you're honest about it. For the last two months he has been telling me that he will love me forever, that he wants to be with me, that I should just come live with him....blah blah blah. I deserve not to be lied too about how you feel towards me. From the beginning I told him that he needs to be honest and communicate. That if he's doubting something to tell me. So we can be on the same page, so we can move in the same direction. I really don't know what I want to do with him. I love him, but does he make me a better person?
In other news, I threw an amazing party for Johns 23th birthday. Basically I'm the shit. I didn't spend the first 5 hours sitting on the porch getting hammered by a blended goodness of watermelon, lime juice, vodka and some sugar. Not at all. And I for sure didn't sexually harass two females by pinning up one against a wall and telling that I wanted to insert my deposit slip in her ATM and that she couldn't handle this APR Rate. And I sure as hell didn't give the other one a lap dance which involved me picking her up and throwing her legs above my head while I bang her up against a wall. God I'm not that trashy, duh.
P.S. Sarah and I are going to the foam party tonight and I'm hella excited.
In other news, I threw an amazing party for Johns 23th birthday. Basically I'm the shit. I didn't spend the first 5 hours sitting on the porch getting hammered by a blended goodness of watermelon, lime juice, vodka and some sugar. Not at all. And I for sure didn't sexually harass two females by pinning up one against a wall and telling that I wanted to insert my deposit slip in her ATM and that she couldn't handle this APR Rate. And I sure as hell didn't give the other one a lap dance which involved me picking her up and throwing her legs above my head while I bang her up against a wall. God I'm not that trashy, duh.
P.S. Sarah and I are going to the foam party tonight and I'm hella excited.