I see my reflection in the night sky

[rejecktionsfrnd]

This past weekend gave me a chance to do something that I haven't had much time for recently. I was able to think clearly, and reflect on my life. As I laid under the stars, I looked at my life and all that is has been. Past, present and future. Who I was, who I am...and who will I be? Laying on the beach, looking at the stars...it really makes you think about value and worth. It puts the importance of things into a certain perspective. Is it odd, that as I laid there staring above...all I could think of was her? Perhaps it's the fool who wishes upon a star, but what does that make the dreamer who wishes on all they are? It's not like anything I've noticed before, but then again...not too many things in my life are of explicit certainty. The dreams I have now have become more and more opportunistic and hope. Oh how it's been so long since I've longed for something in my life. I know the feeling of chasing the unobtainable in hopes to prove myself wrong. But this isn't about that. This is a matter of finding a certain calm that I find in her eyes, a tranquility in her voice. So many questions I have remained unanswered, but I've learned to live with that. It's not me that remains confused anymore these days. I'm now seeing life with a certain clarity in which I never had before. This summer has seen better days to me, but in witnessing death...I've learned what it truly means to lose someone.

And if the fact that I never want to lose her makes me a fool...than I shall be guilty as charged.

Once you lose someone close to you...you realize that there are certain things, and perhaps even people that you pray you don't have to lose.

But the thought losing someone you don't have is that much worse.

And I don't want to lose you...