Title: White
Author: Reishi
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Byakuran/Gokudera, Yamamoto/Gokudera,
Warning: Yaoi, swearing, rape.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the characters, Amano owns them all, so do not sue.
Sorry for the late update, the plot bunny keeps escaping me lately. And I’ve been busy.
And Argh! This chapter…T_T, I’m getting headaches because of this, and writer’s block is slowly stepping in, but I manage to snag this part out of my stupid brain, it’s not particularly good, and I swear it’s my stupidity to please forgive me!
Oh, and last thing…is Gokudera a bit OOC here?
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“Let go, damn it! I swear I’ll kill you!” Gokudera snarled, attempting to break the man’s grip on his arm.
But Byakuran didn’t let go, in fact, the grip became more firm, and he found himself wincing, he looked up just in time to see the man’s eyes meet his own, he fidgeted “Right now you exist only for one thing Gokudera Hayato-kun… and that is to be mine” with that he threw the storm guardian on the bed, licking his lips in anticipation.
Gokudera hissed as he felt his back landed on the soft bed, Oh Fuck No! His mind shouted, but before he could make another move Byakuran was already on top of him, pinning him to the bed.
Byakuran’s touches were setting fire to his very skin, painful, fearful. Tears were dwelling up in his eyes at the mere memory of what had happened god knows how many hours ago, and for it to happen again…
“N-No…” the words came out of his mouth before he could stop it, to the man’s amusement. “G-Get off…”
A grin fixed on the man’s face as his hands started to roam the storm guardian’s body once more, the soft skin, pale complexion…noticing the fear-filled eyes, and shivering in his skin made him almost drool.
He was amused beyond expectation.
The white shirt provided for him was ripped harshly and was thrown carelessly on the floor. The Milfiore boss restrained him quite easily.
Gokudera snarled against the hand holding his mouth firmly, Fuck there was no way he was going to lose this without a fight! He bit Byakuran as hard as he could.
The white haired man hissed and recoiled slightly, pulling his hand away. Gokudera spat out “Get your sick hands away from me!” he shouted, though he looked more scared than angry, and now unable to budge from his spot.
Byakuran looked stunned for a while, holding his injured hand in his other, looking at the young man on the bed, Then he laughed, manically. Yes, this is it, this is what he wanted…
“W-What the hell is funny?!” the silver haired guardian couldn’t help but ask, knowing he would regret whatever the answer is…
He smiled and stared at the whole of him…he suddenly found a love for wild animals, “Bad Kitty” he said, with a grin.
“W-What the---?!” the other spluttered, obviously not expecting that out of him, a small almost unnoticeable blush on his face.
Having recovered from the surprise attack, Byakuran was ready to resume his taming…he shook his head playfully “Tsk, Tsk…Now now, Gokudera-kun…That wasn’t very nice of you…you could’ve hurt your owner badly…” he said, edging to wards him.
“Y-You’re out of your mind!” he backed away but felt the headboard behind him, Shit…he was trapped. “Owner, yeah right!”
Byakuran was hovering on top of him with a devilish smirk. “Let’s try it again, this time…let’s see if you managed to learn your lesson Gokudera-kun…” without warning he crash his lips with the boy.
Temporarily stunned, Gokudera wasn’t able to react, when the feeling came back, he tried to push the man way, but his body started trembling…and he couldn’t… the man was too strong…
“Nnn…” he gasped, trying to at least turn his head away, but a hand came to pin his jaw in place, it was painful, everything was painful. A small sob escaped his throat. He couldn’t protest when Byakuran’s tongue entered his mouth, but with one message, that he was now his property.
His resolve to fight was leaving him at an alarming rate, he couldn’t think, all he wanted was to be back in the dark where it was safe and peaceful… the darkness where he was on his own…the thing that reminded him off…
Yamamoto…he wanted to call out, the rain guardian’s broad chest was the only thing that can comfort him…but Yamamoto wasn’t here…he will never be able to see the man again, never be able to hear his stupid laughs, or his stupid rants about baseball, taste his sushi dishes… he would never be able to listen to his voice again…or feel his arms, his lips…the warmth from him… never again…a tear dropped from his eye.
The white haired man’s hands suddenly moved, and the young man opened his eyes and found that his hands were tied together by the torn fabric of his previous shirt, what the hell? He stared at his binds blankly, how did Byakuran moved that fast? He quickly attempted to remove them.
But his attention was shifted back to the Milfiore boss who was starting to pull down his lower garment, he instantly resisted. “N-No…” he whispered, the usual foul language left him “D-Don’t…”
The clothing was discarded without difficulty as Byakuran stared at his silver haired pet hungrily. “That’s much better, don’t you think?”
“N-No!” he choked out, still trying to release himself from the…how the hell did he tie his bonds that tightly without him even feeling it?!
The man shook his head, “Tsk…tsk… still answering back? Seems like I need to result to more extreme measures…”
He didn’t even want to think what he meant when he said that, but to Gokudera’s horror, he didn’t need to think because Byakuran showed him what he was talking about…
And there was nothing he could do…
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“Tsuna...there was no corpse there…Gokudera might be alive!”
The vongola boss stared at Dino like he was some sort of ghost, did he hear him correctly? Did he just say there was a chance that Gokudera was still alive? Or maybe it was exhaustion playing with his mind…
The Italian stared at him worriedly, the lack of reaction was probably not good “Tsuna?” he said softly.
“Dino-san…” the young man said, in a weak voice “I’m not just dreaming am I? I’m really standing here with you, right?”
“Hai…You’re in reality Tsuna…” he confirmed.
“And what you said just now…” his eyes widened slowly, the feeling starting to return to his feet. Some sort of balloon was swelling up inside him.
The young man smiled “Yes Tsuna what you heard is true, there is a chance that the hurricane bomb is still alive”
Tsuna said nothing at first as let these words sink in…Gokudera could be alive, no, he had to be alive…he must be, Gokudera wasn’t the person he was before, he knew they were waiting for him… at that thought something terrible flickered in his mind.
“D-Dino-san!” he then said urgently. “W-we…we have to find him! We have to find Gokudera-kun!”
“Calm down, Dame-Tsuna” Reborn’s voice suddenly came from behind the two men, Fuuta was walking towards them with the arcobaleno in his shoulder. “If you panic, your subordinates will as well”
“R-Reborn--”
“Don’t worry Tsuna-nii…we’re already investigating where Hayato-nii could’ve gone…” Fuuta said. “Bianchi-nee’s going with Romario-san…”
Dino gave him a reassuring pat “Don’t worry Tsuna…we’ll find him…”
The brunette nodded, a little relieved at what he heard, but he knew he wouldn’t be able to rest completely until he knew Gokudera was safe and sound, or at least back here in the headquarters with them…
“Gokudera-kun…”he whispered.
His gaze went into the direction of Yamamoto’s room, where the rain guardian was still fast asleep. He wondered how he’d be able to face him once he did…
Reborn seemed to have noticed this dilemma and jumped to his shoulder “You can’t run away from the task of a boss Tsuna…” he said “But since they are also your friends they will understand…you just have to trust them…”
He stared at his home tutor for a while, a lot of times he didn’t understand what he was saying, but for the first time, he was really grateful to have reborn here with him… he relaxed “Arigatou, Reborn…”
The arcobaleno merely smiled, but felt proud of the obvious growth in his student.
The moment was suddenly ruined when Gianini came bursting at the scene, looking flustered “Juudaime! Reborn-san! Dino-san! Please follow me to the briefing room!” he exclaimed, all in one breath.
“What’s wrong, Gianini-san?” Tsuna asked, immediately.
“Irie-san found something wrong! It’s connected to the last base!”
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Gokudera’s strangled sobs resounded around the room. He wanted to move, but the bonds were almost cutting his wrist. He was left utterly powerless. In just minutes he was reduced to something like a mere puppet that the white haired man controls.
And it was tearing him apart…
But what was more frightening fact was that his body, however he rejects it, is responding to Byakuran’s touch. He gasped softly when he felt that coil loosen in him somewhere as that wet and sticky fluid came out from him onto the man’s waiting hands. Gokudera was disgusted with himself… how could he let the man do this to him? he closed his eyes and bit his lower lip...he wasn’t worthy of anything anymore…
Yamamoto…
“A-ah!” the storm guardian was suddenly flipped over so that he was now facing Byakuran…he tried to look angry “W-What the hell?!”
The man merely smiled” Do you know how a cat tries to look scary when all the while it’s scared to death?” he asked, lowering himself so that he was level-eyed with the boy.
He tried to open his mouth to say something but the Milfiore boss went to whisper in his ear “It’s exactly how you look at the moment, my little pet” then proceeded to bite his ear.
A stutter and a hiss came from him making the other chuckle…when he looked back at the boy again, his eyes glittered dangerously “Remember this Gokudera-kun…I had you first… and you belong to me…” the younger man’s eyes widened “No one will ever want you now…”
His words were like a slap for Gokudera…No one would want him… Who would want a person that was already unclean and tainted? The tenth would just pity him and Yamamoto… he could never face the rain guardian again… tears started to form in his green-blue orbs… what was the use of living now?
“But you know what…” sounding distant in Gokudera’s ears, Byakuran was talking “I won’t kill you yet…because I want you to suffer…until all the life drains from you…and then you’ll beg me to kill you…” he whispered, sounding excitedly serious. “And I’ll do it painfully...slowly…”
Shiver sent up the silver haired boy’s skin…This is guy is crazy… he’s really serious… “Y-You…” he couldn’t think of anything else to say…he hasn’t done anything yet, but fear was already taking over his mind, he couldn’t think straight…
Think damn it…Gokudera told himself…you need to get away…
But where am I going after? His mind was contradicting him. No one will accept you… not after what happened to you…
But I can’t just let him do this! I have to go back to the others! I have to go to…to…
Yamamoto will hate you if he learns the truth…you’re nothing Gokudera Hayato… you’ve always been worth nothing…
The storm guardian’s thought was interrupted when he felt his legs spread wide apart and Byakuran’s manhood slipping inside him once more. Wide-eyed he tried to struggle, but again was proved powerless.
He gasped as that familiar surge of pain coursed through his body again… he wanted to cry out, but he wasn’t going to give Byakuran the satisfaction he already had over the shorter man.
“My, still stubborn, aren’t we?” the man started thrusting into him, and Gokudera couldn’t fight the gasp escaping his throat. It was too painful…
“A-Ah! Y-Yaah...ahh!” left with no choice, with his hands still tied together he held onto the man’s shoulders.
“A-ah! Y-Yamero! Aah! Nn…” he whimpered as the man hit him fully with each thrust. That uncomfortable coil building up in him again… he sobbed…he just wanted this nightmare to stop…he closed his eyes.
Byakuran seemed to be quite comfortable, in fact, he looked like he was enjoying himself. He stopped momentarily to stare as the storm guardian opened his eyes a bit…looking exhausted…
“Say my name…” he ordered.
“W-Wha?” Gokudera stared, dumbfounded. Did he really just tell him to call out his name like he was his…lover? Now he was really out of his mind… “L-Like I would, D-damn it…”
“I order you to, Gokudera-kun” then the white haired man took on a faster pace.
“A-ah!” he bit his lip, he wasn’t going to give in… never… “N-No…”
“Do it” his thrust were getting more and more painful.
“N-No” he said bravely, despite the feeling of being ripped apart from the inside…oh god…He didn’t know if he could take anymore of this…
Byakuran’s face tightened and it that was even possible, thrusted faster. His breathing slowly became shallow and ragged.
“Aah..” Gokudera drew his head back. The side of his vision was starting to go black…he couldn’t think… “N-No more…Please…” he gasped “I…I can’t…”
He shuddered as he came once more, he couldn’t even feel pain now…just numbness and weariness…if he was lucky, he would die now…
The Milfiore boss came not so long after, he pulled out of the storm guardian a nd stared at his collapsed form on the bed. He smirked “Who’s your master?”
Gokudera’s eyes rolled at the back of his head, he was able to whisper something before falling into unconsciousness once more…
A few minutes later and Byakuran strode out of the room fixing his clothes. Looking a wee bit tired but perfectly satisfied…
Y-You are…Byakuran-sama…
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Yamamoto was running through a deep dark tunnel, there was light at the end of it, but no matter what he did he couldn’t seem to reach it. no matter how fast he ran, the light was still far away.
“Kuso” he cursed…his legs were starting to complain, and he was slowly starting to run out of breath, but still he ran, he knew he had to get to the end of that tunnel somehow.
A person’s face came staring at him form the end of the darkness. A person the rain guardian knew too well. that person tried to smile at him despite a pained face “Don’t you give up, Yakkyu Baka” with that he turned around to walk away…father away from him…
“Matte!” Yamamoto exclaimed “Where are you going? Don’t go!” he ran faster, why did it felt like that person was going to disappear? Like if he didn’t reach him he would be farher and farther away…
the person turned around one last time before being engulfed by the brightness of the light “Sayonara… Takeshi…”
“Hayato…Hayato!!” with that, Yamamoto Takeshi opened his eyes, finally awake from that nightmare.
-TBC?-
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Argh!! I so fail at writing lemon and smut!! T_T sorry if I couldn’t give you guys the satisfaction I was hoping to give in this chapter.
Argh! I hope this writer’s block won’t settle in, anyway, criticize me? X_x
*hides behind another high wall*