Remembering stuff
Note: I noticed part way through that this is more of a ramble than anything else. You have been warned.
Its kinda funny how the brain works, least when its trying to keep you safe/sane. For me its been helping me forget (and without the use the alcohol/drugs I might add) about my Mom, my Grandpa and Kuon. Lately it feels like its been working overtime. For example, my Mom's birthday is Nov 23rd, which is this Sunday. It just sunk in or my mind finally let me remember it. My Dad has been telling me for the last 3 weeks that my sister was coming in this weekend so we could be together for it. I kept forgetting it, usually about 5 minutes after he told me. Last night is the last time I actually remember him telling me that she is coming.
And all the holidays coming.
I am sitting at my desk wishing that I was home, buried under my covers, thinking about nothing.
You would think data entry would be good for this. But its not. My mind isn't busy enough and has time to wander. And then I stop and just stare. Its been just today that this has hit me. *sigh*
Going to see if music will distract me enough that I can get back to work. Anything to pass the time faster than just sitting and staring.
EDIT: On the way home, this idea popped into my head. I can either continue down the path that I was on at work, with all the aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, I dont want to think about this stuff, please just make it go away. Or I could try working through it, as I have been giving a chance by remembering all this stuff that while it seems like it sucks to think about, perhaps I can start to move through it. I'm currently trying the remember it and think it through path. 1. It feels right. 2. I can always go back to the aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, dont want to think about it path whenever I want, lol.
Its kinda funny how the brain works, least when its trying to keep you safe/sane. For me its been helping me forget (and without the use the alcohol/drugs I might add) about my Mom, my Grandpa and Kuon. Lately it feels like its been working overtime. For example, my Mom's birthday is Nov 23rd, which is this Sunday. It just sunk in or my mind finally let me remember it. My Dad has been telling me for the last 3 weeks that my sister was coming in this weekend so we could be together for it. I kept forgetting it, usually about 5 minutes after he told me. Last night is the last time I actually remember him telling me that she is coming.
And all the holidays coming.
I am sitting at my desk wishing that I was home, buried under my covers, thinking about nothing.
You would think data entry would be good for this. But its not. My mind isn't busy enough and has time to wander. And then I stop and just stare. Its been just today that this has hit me. *sigh*
Going to see if music will distract me enough that I can get back to work. Anything to pass the time faster than just sitting and staring.
EDIT: On the way home, this idea popped into my head. I can either continue down the path that I was on at work, with all the aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, I dont want to think about this stuff, please just make it go away. Or I could try working through it, as I have been giving a chance by remembering all this stuff that while it seems like it sucks to think about, perhaps I can start to move through it. I'm currently trying the remember it and think it through path. 1. It feels right. 2. I can always go back to the aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, dont want to think about it path whenever I want, lol.