1st happy thing happened
OK, i know i've written so many bad things in this Journal, i even feel ashamed by it. wkwkwk....
this just like the way for me to throw all my anger, sadness, and guilty.
yes, i know it, it's bad for my health.
a healthy person shouldn't complain again and again.
but, somehow...
i feel a bit happy for these days, though the guilty still there and the emptiness of having no friends dear enough for me,
but i'll never look back and feel sorry for letting them go.
no, my tears are starting to flow every time i think about them.
no good. though i've decided to make this the 1st post with happy feels inside.
nah, lately i'm fascinated and idolizing a cosplay group called Endiru.
hehehehe....
and i really love Orochi's and Pinku cosplay. they looks so bright for me to reach. haha...
(me, the one who've fallen to darkness of my heart)
but after i make a devianart account, and posting my comment on Pinku's account,
i'm feel really happy that she respond to my comment and we even talked,
well, not talked illiterately, but we keep on replying every comment.
i fell so happy. since i got to talked to her
and got to say out loud my admire and like of Orochi's cosplay.
it feels like all my comment is filled with my compliment for them, when i read it again, i feel embarassed myself.
wkwkwk....
i'd love to become friends with them.
well, no inner mission, wkwkwk...
i should open my eyes clear so that i could see her as "she", not "he"
this just like the way for me to throw all my anger, sadness, and guilty.
yes, i know it, it's bad for my health.
a healthy person shouldn't complain again and again.
but, somehow...
i feel a bit happy for these days, though the guilty still there and the emptiness of having no friends dear enough for me,
but i'll never look back and feel sorry for letting them go.
no, my tears are starting to flow every time i think about them.
no good. though i've decided to make this the 1st post with happy feels inside.
nah, lately i'm fascinated and idolizing a cosplay group called Endiru.
hehehehe....
and i really love Orochi's and Pinku cosplay. they looks so bright for me to reach. haha...
(me, the one who've fallen to darkness of my heart)
but after i make a devianart account, and posting my comment on Pinku's account,
i'm feel really happy that she respond to my comment and we even talked,
well, not talked illiterately, but we keep on replying every comment.
i fell so happy. since i got to talked to her
and got to say out loud my admire and like of Orochi's cosplay.
it feels like all my comment is filled with my compliment for them, when i read it again, i feel embarassed myself.
wkwkwk....
i'd love to become friends with them.
well, no inner mission, wkwkwk...
i should open my eyes clear so that i could see her as "she", not "he"