hardboiled eggs
im actually very lonely right now. its only 11 and i have to wait until 530 for justin to come home. i could talk to alice but i'm very upset about home and spilling out my emotions to her would be very awkward for me. i just wish my parents were more understanding. im not a little girl anymore and i wish they would stop treating me like i am one. its this mentality that makes me horrible at so many things. because they forced me to be so dependent on them, that when i do have jobs im always so acquiescent rather than aggressive and active. i wish i was more of an outgoing person when it comes to getting things done. i usually just watch people do things, afraid to do it on my own. at home, trying to do things on my own ended up in me getting yelled at when done incorrectly. with other people, its not that way at all. actually there's tons more leniency.
the other day when justin and i were cooking dinner, i went to make hardboiled eggs but dropped all the eggs in a bit too harshly and they all cracked. i felt horrible and stepped away from the stove giving up on cooking (my least favorite thing to do) and justin made salad. i sat there glumly eating my salad when justin asked, 'What's wrong?' and I replied, 'im gonna be a horrible wife'. he only laughed and i looked up at him briefly. he shook his head lightly and said, 'baby its just eggs..dont worry about it. its not even cooking anyway. ull be fine.' This was surprising because im used to being yelled at for not having any common sense but this time there was something different- there was hope. hope that i could get better. and he had it more than i did. but still, it was there and it was an experience i wont forget. and it makes me want to learn to cook- just for him. because hes supportive. and thats all a girl like me really needs right now.
the other day when justin and i were cooking dinner, i went to make hardboiled eggs but dropped all the eggs in a bit too harshly and they all cracked. i felt horrible and stepped away from the stove giving up on cooking (my least favorite thing to do) and justin made salad. i sat there glumly eating my salad when justin asked, 'What's wrong?' and I replied, 'im gonna be a horrible wife'. he only laughed and i looked up at him briefly. he shook his head lightly and said, 'baby its just eggs..dont worry about it. its not even cooking anyway. ull be fine.' This was surprising because im used to being yelled at for not having any common sense but this time there was something different- there was hope. hope that i could get better. and he had it more than i did. but still, it was there and it was an experience i wont forget. and it makes me want to learn to cook- just for him. because hes supportive. and thats all a girl like me really needs right now.