sweet sweet nightingale
oh man... a lot of shit has happened. i cant even believe it anymore. i mean here im worried about this and that and then BAM. strange part was...i felt it coming. everything was going well so i was like, yepp figures im grounded now so somethings gunna come along to test it. but so far im dealin. i mean its hard seeing justin the way he is. its hard seein the situation at hand. the family only wants close people around now. justin, moose and me went the other day to see him. i couldnt even cry. when i experience extreme emotions, i dont do anything. i just get quiet. when im really happy im speechless. when im scared i dont cry or blabber. i just get quiet. when im angry, i give a look accompanied by silence. and when im sad- and i mean like the other day...i dont say a word. i just watch everything. plus i didnt want to cry in front of justin. he was already a mess. even moose. someone had to be strong. agh...its just so crazy. this year is crazy. it was like someone slowly started spilling reality into my life. kids are dying left in right. and now this? if what might happen actually happens...i feel its worst than death. hell, id rather be dead. but in comparison to what could have happened, im glad this is the case. im still scared though. you never know. just gotta pray. and ive been praying for him for about a year and half now. aghhhhh.
ohhh boy. but happy thoughts: been enjoyin ps3. its the shit. i kick ass. basically.
been learning more bass. i can play some incubus- quicksand and anna molly. its funny cuz i wasnt a fan of the new album at first but now i love it.
ugh and music reminds me of dimmu borgir. since now he cant go to the show...idk whos going to take his ticket. now its justin, helaina, me and ? who?! who the hell else likes dimmu?
well im gunna go find someone to talk to. and idk...learn some more bass. cuz its the shit.
ohh and sam (justins dad) heavily complimented my singing. i got all bashful. he doesnt give out compliments often. soo yeah. i take him with a grain of salt most of the time. hes a good guy. he said today that he insults me to get a rise out of me.
heslike, i cant believe this girl! she doesnt fight back or yell or get angry!
and alice (justins mom) was like, do you want a fight from her?! whats wrong with you sam?!
and im sittin there laughin in my head.
you cant break me.
you cant fucking break me.
best part is,
that bothers people.
overnout
ohhh boy. but happy thoughts: been enjoyin ps3. its the shit. i kick ass. basically.
been learning more bass. i can play some incubus- quicksand and anna molly. its funny cuz i wasnt a fan of the new album at first but now i love it.
ugh and music reminds me of dimmu borgir. since now he cant go to the show...idk whos going to take his ticket. now its justin, helaina, me and ? who?! who the hell else likes dimmu?
well im gunna go find someone to talk to. and idk...learn some more bass. cuz its the shit.
ohh and sam (justins dad) heavily complimented my singing. i got all bashful. he doesnt give out compliments often. soo yeah. i take him with a grain of salt most of the time. hes a good guy. he said today that he insults me to get a rise out of me.
heslike, i cant believe this girl! she doesnt fight back or yell or get angry!
and alice (justins mom) was like, do you want a fight from her?! whats wrong with you sam?!
and im sittin there laughin in my head.
you cant break me.
you cant fucking break me.
best part is,
that bothers people.
overnout