This post has been brewing in my mind for some time now... Hopefully I can articulate everything I've been feeling and thinking lately
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I am praying for you so hard right now. Thank you so very much for sharing this. I've tried to imagine myself in your place, and it hurt *me* so badly I just stopped. :'(
Indeed as Job: God isn't cruel; he is sovereign. Job was upset because he felt God owed him for his faithfulness and good life, though his friends were convinced that he had secret sin. God finally reminded him that He does what He will, and He is not obligated to provide earthly blessing in return for behavior. God's ways are by definition incomprehensible. But His character is unchanged, and there is no evil in Him. He IS good.
This is such a hard blow for you. It doesn't make any sense. I am absolutely certain that God is going to lead you to wonderful things in this, whether you wrist heals immediately or never. I don't know what the future is; you may have miraculous peace and joy throughout this uncertainty. You may be a witness for Him to all those you contact. He may put a desire in your heart for other activities which will also glorify Him. He may provide a similar outlet in historical sewing, or at least fashion, that will continue your passion. He may bring you and Mike closer together than you could have imagined. I don't know the future; rest in Him. He who began a good work in you WILL carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus: it's not up to you. We are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.
It's a Hollywoodism/platitude, that when God closes a door He opens a window. Maybe so; maybe we will never truly see the window here on earth. But I can trust that God is good. I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. The life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me. I guess this is a really hard example of how to live by faith, for you, like for Job. My God WILL meet all your needs in Christ Jesus.
I hope that this didn't come across preachy; it felt like it needed to come. I'm praying for you, especially for peace, and for joy, in the midst of anger and sadness.
the more i examine this in my mind, the more i realize it's at its heart a spiritual struggle... i've always known that sewing was something of an idol for me (mixed up with my pride especially) but i was never willing to surrender it to God. it consumes me. i can't separate sewing from how i define myself. what's wrong with being samantha the christ-follower? why does it HAVE to be samantha who sews historical clothing? i don't think i've been focused on the right things, and it's terrible to think that this is what it takes to make me start thinking about things other than sewing. but it still hurts.
That's a hard realization, on so many levels. God has really placed you on my heart this week. He is good; I know that, and you know that. He's in control. I'm praying especially that He will draw you nearer to Him than you've ever been. (((HUGS))) <3
Indeed as Job: God isn't cruel; he is sovereign. Job was upset because he felt God owed him for his faithfulness and good life, though his friends were convinced that he had secret sin. God finally reminded him that He does what He will, and He is not obligated to provide earthly blessing in return for behavior. God's ways are by definition incomprehensible. But His character is unchanged, and there is no evil in Him. He IS good.
This is such a hard blow for you. It doesn't make any sense. I am absolutely certain that God is going to lead you to wonderful things in this, whether you wrist heals immediately or never. I don't know what the future is; you may have miraculous peace and joy throughout this uncertainty. You may be a witness for Him to all those you contact. He may put a desire in your heart for other activities which will also glorify Him. He may provide a similar outlet in historical sewing, or at least fashion, that will continue your passion. He may bring you and Mike closer together than you could have imagined. I don't know the future; rest in Him. He who began a good work in you WILL carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus: it's not up to you. We are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.
It's a Hollywoodism/platitude, that when God closes a door He opens a window. Maybe so; maybe we will never truly see the window here on earth. But I can trust that God is good.
I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. The life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me. I guess this is a really hard example of how to live by faith, for you, like for Job. My God WILL meet all your needs in Christ Jesus.
I hope that this didn't come across preachy; it felt like it needed to come. I'm praying for you, especially for peace, and for joy, in the midst of anger and sadness.
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the more i examine this in my mind, the more i realize it's at its heart a spiritual struggle... i've always known that sewing was something of an idol for me (mixed up with my pride especially) but i was never willing to surrender it to God. it consumes me. i can't separate sewing from how i define myself. what's wrong with being samantha the christ-follower? why does it HAVE to be samantha who sews historical clothing? i don't think i've been focused on the right things, and it's terrible to think that this is what it takes to make me start thinking about things other than sewing. but it still hurts.
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