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Because I want to update my journal but can't think of anything good (= something that doesn't involve the too much thinking I did the last week(s)) to write I present you an old or not so old piece of fanfiction ^.^ deadraconis already knows it and she kinda liked it, so it can't be that bad ^-^
Fandom: Dejimon
Pairing: Taito ♥
Wordcount: 1253
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: My alltime favorites are still not mine, even after all this years, unfortunately and no one wants to give me money for my writing. Pity ^.~
Gentle Self
Everyone always only sees your wild, your energetic self. They see hands which should be used to grab a fast flowing ball towards the goal, a strong body, tanned by the sun and steeled during endless hours on the football field, running after that ball. They see your wide smile, your jubilant grin, your jumping, being hugged by your as jubilant team mates after you, once again, surrendered the opposing defence and shot that damned ball into that place of wood and threads.
We have been together for a really long time. Normal friendships would not have survived so many torrents. We never thought of us as normal or ordinary. Heh, we are the Erabareta Kodomo, after all. So even the start of our friendship was very much not normal. Our friendship did not begin then, I know. It was a long road to the point where we could face each other and smile. Even the fights with you were special. Now that time has been gentle and went by, I can observe our relationship from the start with enough distance.
I remember your smile from back then, carefree but strong, the kind of person that attracted Takeru’s attention, because no one in our family had ever had a similar trait. You stuck out, even in the biggest crowd people’s eyes would follow you. You have an aura that attracts humans. And yes, I’m one of them.
But still, I watched you since a very early time and no matter what those reporters dig out and tell the public, I already know it. You are no person to keep secrets but the few you have are well protected. The only thing you are able to keep from me is what you are going to give me for my next birthday.
Your easy-going attitude annoyed me with no end. I could not stand the sight of you, smiling that silly way over pointless and unimportant things. Playing intact world while around us everything fell apart. But on the other hand it gave me strength. The belief that it was going to be alright. We could win and we would. We did, after all. That time I decided you had your own magic.
After our adventure in the Digital World we were always together. People wondered, but we got along really well. But still I had never seen you weak. I knew you were not perfect, capable of pain and could be hurt but I had never seen you unable to keep yourself together. Not that I wished for this to happen, but I wondered. You were the one I went to after a huge fight with Takeru when I questioned my own value. You were the one I came running to after things with the Teenage Wolves got unpleasant. You were the one who kitted my world. Sometimes with a smile, sometimes with words. You washed my friends’ heads if they were obviously wrong. I even searched your presence after I broke up with Sora. You were always there for me.
I had classroom duty and everyone else had already left. I heard the door slide open but didn’t look up because we had agreed on going home together and making our dinner at my place. I heard your footsteps which sounded somehow unfamiliar. Arms slung around me from behind, you buried your face in my back and I was helpless. I heard and felt your nearly soundless sobbing but did not dare to move. Finally I carefully placed a hand on your head, stroked it gently, run my fingers through your thick hair. You calmed down. I thought. I turned around and it really felt as if a lightening bolt had went straight through me. I shall never be able to forget your sight. It was you in front of me, your eyes swollen, your hair messed up more than normal. The look in your eyes was piercing but not ardent. You were defeated. I swallowed hard and pulled you into my arms. It probably was that moment, that I realized.
I still do not really know what caused this break down. The whole week I had noticed you struggled with something but I was too shy and insecure to approach you on my own. Perhaps I had gotten better with words, but this was you I was talking about. The strong, ever smiling, never sad Taichi. I was at loss. I had no clue what you were thinking about, if there had been something I could have been of help with. I really do not know. I just never wanted to see you this miserable again. You protected me for a long time and I decided I was due to return the favour.
We laughed a lot together, smiled, played silly jokes, went to the sea, played your stupid football, went to my band rehearsals, watched the stars, went to shrine festivals wearing our yukata, drank too much, dragged each other home, made each other smile when the other was moody, encouraged, studied, played, sung, laughed, drank, danced, fought, made up, laughed, enjoyed the company. We were really great friends. We were close to the other Erabareta Kodomo as well, but no one was as close as we were.
You adored the twins, still do too much, but that’s only my unimportant opinion. There was nothing you would not do for your cute little niece and your sweet little nephew. Takeru and Hikari often let them in your care when they needed a day off. Most time I was with the three of them as well and I never could have imagined just how cute the big Taichi could be. You were gentle. You always watched over them smiling and I thought what a great daddy you would be, one day. Once you found the right girl. I did not know you had long since decided.
I can not remember the precise day - all right, I can, sentimental fool I am which you love to remind me (not that you are any better!). That day. We could not see each other as often as we used to, due to our jobs. We have been friends for quite a long time, haven’t we? Whenever we met in those days I noticed a different aura than your usual around you. Something was different. Whether you or I were responsible for the change; now I think we both were.
Few people know the kindness of your smile, how gentle your hands can be, how soft your skin feels. Not many know how much you really care about the people close to you, your family, your friends. The security your arms offer, the cuddling you love and need as much as air to breath. Those mornings in bed when you are only dozing, philosophizing about life and love, snuggling closer to your lover.
I can get lost in your gentleness.
There are many short moments when your love embraces me without my notice. I am not able to describe the depths of your love for me or mine for you. Hikari often whines that if the two of us would not have been that blind we could be together since High School. She has a point. But you and I just look at each other and shrug. And as soon as your little sister looks away you place a little kiss on my cheek and your thumb strokes the back of my hand fondly.
Fandom: Dejimon
Pairing: Taito ♥
Wordcount: 1253
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: My alltime favorites are still not mine, even after all this years, unfortunately and no one wants to give me money for my writing. Pity ^.~
Gentle Self
Everyone always only sees your wild, your energetic self. They see hands which should be used to grab a fast flowing ball towards the goal, a strong body, tanned by the sun and steeled during endless hours on the football field, running after that ball. They see your wide smile, your jubilant grin, your jumping, being hugged by your as jubilant team mates after you, once again, surrendered the opposing defence and shot that damned ball into that place of wood and threads.
We have been together for a really long time. Normal friendships would not have survived so many torrents. We never thought of us as normal or ordinary. Heh, we are the Erabareta Kodomo, after all. So even the start of our friendship was very much not normal. Our friendship did not begin then, I know. It was a long road to the point where we could face each other and smile. Even the fights with you were special. Now that time has been gentle and went by, I can observe our relationship from the start with enough distance.
I remember your smile from back then, carefree but strong, the kind of person that attracted Takeru’s attention, because no one in our family had ever had a similar trait. You stuck out, even in the biggest crowd people’s eyes would follow you. You have an aura that attracts humans. And yes, I’m one of them.
But still, I watched you since a very early time and no matter what those reporters dig out and tell the public, I already know it. You are no person to keep secrets but the few you have are well protected. The only thing you are able to keep from me is what you are going to give me for my next birthday.
Your easy-going attitude annoyed me with no end. I could not stand the sight of you, smiling that silly way over pointless and unimportant things. Playing intact world while around us everything fell apart. But on the other hand it gave me strength. The belief that it was going to be alright. We could win and we would. We did, after all. That time I decided you had your own magic.
After our adventure in the Digital World we were always together. People wondered, but we got along really well. But still I had never seen you weak. I knew you were not perfect, capable of pain and could be hurt but I had never seen you unable to keep yourself together. Not that I wished for this to happen, but I wondered. You were the one I went to after a huge fight with Takeru when I questioned my own value. You were the one I came running to after things with the Teenage Wolves got unpleasant. You were the one who kitted my world. Sometimes with a smile, sometimes with words. You washed my friends’ heads if they were obviously wrong. I even searched your presence after I broke up with Sora. You were always there for me.
I had classroom duty and everyone else had already left. I heard the door slide open but didn’t look up because we had agreed on going home together and making our dinner at my place. I heard your footsteps which sounded somehow unfamiliar. Arms slung around me from behind, you buried your face in my back and I was helpless. I heard and felt your nearly soundless sobbing but did not dare to move. Finally I carefully placed a hand on your head, stroked it gently, run my fingers through your thick hair. You calmed down. I thought. I turned around and it really felt as if a lightening bolt had went straight through me. I shall never be able to forget your sight. It was you in front of me, your eyes swollen, your hair messed up more than normal. The look in your eyes was piercing but not ardent. You were defeated. I swallowed hard and pulled you into my arms. It probably was that moment, that I realized.
I still do not really know what caused this break down. The whole week I had noticed you struggled with something but I was too shy and insecure to approach you on my own. Perhaps I had gotten better with words, but this was you I was talking about. The strong, ever smiling, never sad Taichi. I was at loss. I had no clue what you were thinking about, if there had been something I could have been of help with. I really do not know. I just never wanted to see you this miserable again. You protected me for a long time and I decided I was due to return the favour.
We laughed a lot together, smiled, played silly jokes, went to the sea, played your stupid football, went to my band rehearsals, watched the stars, went to shrine festivals wearing our yukata, drank too much, dragged each other home, made each other smile when the other was moody, encouraged, studied, played, sung, laughed, drank, danced, fought, made up, laughed, enjoyed the company. We were really great friends. We were close to the other Erabareta Kodomo as well, but no one was as close as we were.
You adored the twins, still do too much, but that’s only my unimportant opinion. There was nothing you would not do for your cute little niece and your sweet little nephew. Takeru and Hikari often let them in your care when they needed a day off. Most time I was with the three of them as well and I never could have imagined just how cute the big Taichi could be. You were gentle. You always watched over them smiling and I thought what a great daddy you would be, one day. Once you found the right girl. I did not know you had long since decided.
I can not remember the precise day - all right, I can, sentimental fool I am which you love to remind me (not that you are any better!). That day. We could not see each other as often as we used to, due to our jobs. We have been friends for quite a long time, haven’t we? Whenever we met in those days I noticed a different aura than your usual around you. Something was different. Whether you or I were responsible for the change; now I think we both were.
Few people know the kindness of your smile, how gentle your hands can be, how soft your skin feels. Not many know how much you really care about the people close to you, your family, your friends. The security your arms offer, the cuddling you love and need as much as air to breath. Those mornings in bed when you are only dozing, philosophizing about life and love, snuggling closer to your lover.
I can get lost in your gentleness.
There are many short moments when your love embraces me without my notice. I am not able to describe the depths of your love for me or mine for you. Hikari often whines that if the two of us would not have been that blind we could be together since High School. She has a point. But you and I just look at each other and shrug. And as soon as your little sister looks away you place a little kiss on my cheek and your thumb strokes the back of my hand fondly.