MY EVERYTHING (oneshot, ReitaxRuki)
Title: My Everything
Author: reiloveskitkat
Band: The Gazette
Genre: angst, romance
Pairing: ReitaxRuki (pastiiii...)
Ratings: PG-15
Warnings: Bad english
Disclaimer: Ruki belongs to Reita!! I just own the story..
Summary: Ruki was paralyzed since he had an accident, but however he was, Reita would always love
him..
Notes: Another fic!!! Yeahh… as usual….
Comments are always loves… <3
Enjoy~
Reita turned his apartment door knob slowly with a wide grin on his face. Holding a plastic bag in his hand. He just bought something that his lover, Ruki loved so much. A cake, a soft chocolate cake.
The blonde took off his shoes and put it aside. He stepped on the wooden floor while looking around searching for the small brunette. Ruki wasn’t in the living room, not in the kitchen too. So Reita decided to walk toward their bedroom and found the younger on the balcony.
Ruki sit on his wheelchair, looking at the busy city in front of his eyes from the balcony. Wind blew softly, made his hair waving softly. He had an accident three years ago which made his legs paralyzed and he had to use the wheelchair because therapy couldn’t help him to walk again. Since the accident, he often lost his spirit to life, his bright face dim slowly . But Reita always tried to do anything to make him smile again.
The brunette heard a soft click from their bedroom door signaling that his boyfriend was home. He turned his face a little but back to the view. Then he felt arms around his shoulder and a kiss on his flawless cheek.
“I’m home..” Reita whispered on Ruki’s ear as he loosened his arms.
The younger turned his wheelchair to face the other. He smiled, even the smiled seemed forced. “Welcome home, Rei..”
Reita pulled a chair to sit beside the brunette. “What are you doing, hm?” he took Ruki’s small hand to his.
Ruki’s smile faded. “Nothing.. just.. looked at the view..” he looked back to the city.
The blonde’s gaze followed Ruki’s, then he put the small bag he brought to the younger’s lap made Ruki looked down. “What is this?”
“Your favorite cake..” Reita smiled.
Ruki open the box and found the small cake. He looked up and smiled widely. “For me?”
How happy Reita to see the younger smile like that, so pure and full with happiness. He could sparkles in those beautiful eyes he loved the most. The blonde nodded. “Sure.. special for you..”
The brunette giggled cutely, showing his perfect teeth. “Thank you, Rei-chan…”
“Welcome, sweetie..” Reita caressed Ruki’s hair.
Then Ruki moved the cake, in with the box, to the older’s lap. “I’ll get the plate..” he turned his wheelchair and went to the kitchen. Soon, he got back to the balcony where Reita waited for him. “Here..” he gave Reita the plates for the two of them.
The blonde man took the plates and placed the slices on it. He saw Ruki cheered, he just chuckled at the cute sight. He never wanted to see the other depressed. So he would do anything to keep him happy, even it was impossible.
They both ate the cakes, Reita never took his gaze from the brunette smiling figure. The sight of Ruki ate the cake made him just wanted to put his cake on the table. “Like it?”
Ruki looked up still munching the chocolate cake. “No..” as he saw the blonde’s smile faded, he giggled adorably. “But I love it!!”
Reita chuckled and sighed in relief. Stroking the younger’s hair, the act made him pout. But Reita kept teasing the other, called him chubby, kitty.. anything that made Ruki pout cutely.
At night, Reita always pushed Ruki’s wheelchair to their bedroom. Picked Ruki up then laid him on the bed. And after that, he would join the other and hugged the brunette tightly.
“Rei-chan…” Ruki called softly.
“Hm?” the blonde kissed Ruki’s forehead as closing his eyes.
The brunette bit his lips, seemed unsure about what he would to say. “Can we go out tomorrow?”
Reita opened his eyes and looked down. “You want to go?” as he saw the younger nodded. “Okay.. where?” he smiled.
Ruki put his finger on his lip, thinking. “Mm.. not so far.. just to the park near here.. How is it?”
“No problem..”
Ruki smiled. “Thank you Rei-chan..” he snuggled closer to his lover’s warm body. “Good night..” closing his eyes slowly.
“Good night, baby…”
Then they drifted off to their sweet dreams.
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The next day,
Reita pushed Ruki’s wheelchair as they went to the park near their apartment complex. It wasn’t weekend so the park wasn’t so crowded. Ruki wanted to go out today because he never wanted to meet anyone since he was paralyzed.
Ruki pointed out to the bench under a big tree on the side of the park where just a few people walked there. He considered it as the most quite place on the park. When they arrived there, Reita offered the younger to sit on the bench not on his wheelchair. The blonde picked Ruki from the wheelchair and sat him on the bench, then sat beside him letting Ruki’s head leant on his shoulder.
They just sat there with a comfortable silence. Enjoying each other presence. It had been a long time since Ruki went outside. He missed the time when they were walking side by side with holding hands. The younger just smiled bitterly as he played the memory on his head. Ruki looked up to see Reita as he felt the other sighed. He followed Reita’s gaze.
Reita was looking at the couple not far from where he and Ruki sat. The said couple was walking hand in hand and the girl looked so happy. The cute made him let out a faint smile, remembering the cute Ruki bouncing around dragged him from store to store. But since the other had the accident, he felt Ruki’s sparkled eyes faded day by day.
The brunette lifted his head from Reita’s shoulder, lowering his gaze. He saw the sadness in the blonde’s eyes and thought it was because of his condition. he bit his lip to hold back his tears.
“Ru?”
Ruki jumped a little in surprise by the deep voice of Reita’s. “Y-yes?” he wiped his tears quickly. He forced a smile as facing the other.
“You okay?” Reita caressed Ruki’s smooth cheek, the younger nodded. He frowned, he sure Ruki was crying but he didn’t ask him further.
“I want to go home..” Ruki murmured but the older still could hear it, still lowered his gaze
Without any question he moved the younger to his wheelchair. “Are you sure you want to go home now?” he leant so his face was on Ruki’s level.
Ruki just nodded slowly without facing his lover. Seeing the brunette’s act Reita knew that Ruki was thinking about something.
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Ruki sat on his wheelchair on the balcony looking at the city sight. His cheeks seemed paler than usual and the sparkle in his eyes even darkened. He thought what he could do for his lover. He felt since he was paralyzed he never do something to make Reita happy. At least that was what he thought, Reita maybe wouldn’t think like Ruki did.
The brunette’s eyes began to fill by tears, ready to flow down the flawless cheeks. He reminded everything the older always do to him. Tried everything just to make him happy, while he couldn’t do anything.
Ruki sighed and wiped his tears then moved his wheelchair to the living room. He pushed near the wall. He looked at the clock and saw that Reita would be home soon. He closed his eyes and inhaled, the brunette leant down to place his feet on the floor.
“I can do this… yeah, I can walk again..” Ruki prayed silently. He pressed his palms on the cold wall and tried to lift his body. For the first trial, he failed. He bit his lip to hold his tears, he set his mind to keep trying.
Minutes later, he managed to pull himself up until his feet looked flat on the floor, with his hands held on his wheelchair. But his arm wasn’t strong enough to support his body, he fell on the floor with a loud thump. His tears flew freely.
“I can’t..” he murmured between his sob. The brunette tried again to sit himself on the floor, but his lower body couldn’t support his movement so he just laid on the floor crying so hard.
This incident made Ruki more thinking that he was useless for Reita. His cries increased harder. He was too deep in sorrow until he didn’t hear the sound coming from the front door.
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“I’m home..” Reita entered their apartment with a smile on his smile, he was so happy to meet his cute little lover again from his busy day.
The blonde guy entered the room further but he didn’t saw anything, until he heard a silent sob from the side of the living room. He explored the room and found a sight that made his heart scream. Ruki was lying on the floor with his wheelchair right on his limp feet.
Reita ran immediately towards the brunette and help him to sit. He hugged Ruki tightly and checked if there were injuries on Ruki’s face and body. When he found none, he kissed the younger’s forehead.
“Don’t touch me!!!!” Ruki screamed and pushed Reita’s chest, still sobbing. He moved his body frantically further from the other. But it just made him fell again on the floor.
The blonde frowned as he looked at Ruki. “What happened?” he held Ruki’s arm, but just got slapped on his arms.
“Go away!!” Ruki cried harder. Hit Reita’s chest repeatedly and stopped when he lost his energy. Still sobbing.
Reita pulled the brunette’s small body and wrapped his strong arms around Ruki. He tried to calm him down. Ruki’s slender frame was shaking in his arm.
“I’m useless…” Ruki said between his sobs. “I can’t do anything for you, Rei..” he grabbed Reita’s shirt on his fist.
“Ssh, calm down…” the blonde stroked Ruki’s back. “What do you say that, hm?” he kissed Ruki’s hair lovingly.
“I want to make you happy… but I can’t..” he continued sobbing on Reita’s chest.
“It’s not true.. you always make me happy, don’t you know that?”
The brunette shook his head. “I’m useless… I even can’t do something for you..”
Reita pressed Ruki’s head on his chest again. He never wanted something like this to happen.
“You always trying to do anything for me… but what did I do? Nothing, Rei!!!” Ruki cried again.
The blonde tried to ignore Ruki’s words about “I’m useless” or anything, but as he heard even more, he couldn’t hold it again. “Stop it, Ru!!!!” He shouted and he saw Ruki gasped. Seemed frightened about what he did.
Ruki’s jaw dropped in surprised, he never expected that the older would shout at him like that. Tears kept flowing from Ruki’s big brown eyes, but he said nothing.
“I never ask you to do anything..” Reita held Ruki’s cheeks to make him looked at him straight in the eyes. As he knew the younger heard him, he continued. “I just need your love,Ru.. Your love is the best thing I’ve ever have..” the sadness clearly viewed in his eyes. “I would do anything to you.. I just want to make you smile… I don’t ask much..”
Ruki kept shut, his mind went blank. he just stared at the older’s eyes. He found nothing besides honesty.
“I love you, Ru.. always..” and the strong Reita was yielding, tear fall slowly on his cheek. “Please, don’t make me think that everything I did was useless too..” still, he didn’t get answer from the younger. “or you think maybe I should go?”
“NO!!” the brunette wrapped his tiny arm around Reita’s neck, hugged him tightly. “I’m sorry.. I’m so sorry..” he sobbed again, crying harder than before. “I really am sorry…”
Reita hugged him back, holding the younger’s shaking form. “I love you, Ru..” he said that over and over again as if that was the only sentence he knew.
“Don’t leave me..” Ruki buried his face on Reita’s neck, inhaling the scent he loved the most.
“I wont..” Reita kissed the top of Ruki’s head.
“I’m sorry for do such a stupid thing…” Ruki murmured with a weak sob. “I love you…” he looked up to face Reita.
Reita just smiled as Ruki moved his small thumb to wipe the other’s tear. The blonde leant down and captured Ruki’s lips, kissing him. “Don’t do that again.. you made me scare..” he felt the brunette nodded to his words. “At least don’t do when I’m not at home..”
Ruki let out a smile against Reita’s lip so the other could feel it. They pulled away when they lungs screamed for air. Staring to each other’s eyes. Now, they found none besides love.
N/A: ampuuun… bikinnya penuh pemaksaan dari dalem otak… = =ll
Ngomong-ngomong, ini inspirasinya dari lagunya Wali- Baik Baik Sayang.. habis videonya bagus.. hehe..
Intinya… I’m sorry if you had found so many weird parts here~ *bow*