FORBIDDEN LOVE (ReitaxRuki) - chp 7
I stared at Reita’s back when he stepped out from our apartment to pick Uruha up. I sighed. Uruha was coming home, it meant I could never be with Reita like these few days when my brother was not around. I lowered my head and grasped my chest; it hurt, hurt so much. I blinked my eyes as I realized something; my shirt was still half opened.
I stood up and looked around the room which was a bit messy. I sighed and decided to tidy it up; I just wanted the room to be organized well when Uruha got home. Just like Reita said before, we had to keep everything that made him suspicious about our ‘relationship’ out, and I agreed. Well, it hurt so bad… I’m sure all of you know that..
And I didn’t know how long I had to wonder when I would get the ‘normal’ relationship with Reita. He promised me that someday he would be just mine.. but when, I don’t know. But if that happened, how about Uruha? I don’t know either. Most likely, it would destroy my relationship with Uruha as brothers. Yeah.. it would ruin almost everything.
After finished everything in the living room I returned to my own room and found my phone’s light blinked; signing that I had unopened message. I sat on the bed and flipped my phone open, a message. As what I thought, that was Uruha. After I read the message, I threw it away to the bed and it bounced right near me. Uruha just told me that he would arrive in about half an hour, so I didn’t need to reply the message.
I looked around my room. What should I do until they arrived? I sighed, why did I get bored easily? I rested my back and played with my phone, looking at the images saved in my memory card. My mom’s pictures.. I missed her.. I let out a small smile. I would call her later.
I stood up from the bed and went to the bathroom. I touched my face as I looked at reflection on the mirror in the bathroom; my skin color is always pale. I frowned and tilted my head. I gasped as I saw there was red mark on the side of my neck; a mark from Reita’s lips. I pulled my hair a bit to cover it but it didn’t work, my hair was too short. I tried to straighten my collar to cover it, but the mark still could be seen. I bit my lower lip; I had to do something to cover that mark. I washed my hands and rubbed the mark with water, but again, nothing happened; it was not the same like stain from a marker.
I rushed again to my room and took all my clothes from my cupboard; I hoped I could find something to cover the mark. Ah! Got it. I looked at the turtle-neck shirt in my hand. I tilted my head a little, this one or your secret would be revealed, I said to myself. I immediately took off my current shirt and changed with the other one. I looked at the mirror and tilted my head a little to make sure that the mark had been covered. I smiled.
“Ru-chaaaan~~ are you there???” I snapped my head to the side as I heard Uruha’s voice.
Oh my God, he was home. I ran to the living room, leaving my room still messy with piles of clothes on the bed.
“Uru?” when I saw my brother I gave him my brightest smile. Well, although I was upset Uruha got home, yet I still happy to see my brother smile again. Such a contradiction, huh?
Uruha walked toward me and gave me his usual bear hug; so warm, I kind of love it. We pulled away and he ruffled my hair. I didn’t know why everyone liked to see me pouting. I looked at Reita who was now locking the door. Our eyes locked, and he gave me his usual angelic, warm smile.
“Ru-chan?” Uruha’s voice snapped me to reality.
I blinked my eyes and looked up to Uruha.
“Why do you wear this turtle neck shirt? Are you sick? Fever?” he looked worried and tried to touch my neck with the back of his hand.
I stepped back and suddenly remembered the reason why I wore these kind of clothes. “Eh.. no… I’m okay.. don’t worry…”
“Are you sure??” Uruha frowned a little. I could see he was worried about me.
“Yeah.. I’m fine… “ I gave him my best fake-smile.
He smiled, but I still could see worries in his eyes. “Okaay… I think I need a bath right now…”
I chuckled.
“You know Reita won’t came near me if I smell bad..” Uruha pouted at the thought.
I bit my lips as I heard what he just said. I’m sure you all know how I felt. “….. I know..” I said in a low tone. Well done, another sharp knife stabbed my heart.
Uruha walked past me into his bedroom while I’m still standing in the center of the living room, my brain felt like stopped working until Reita tapped my shoulder, brought me back to reality.
“Eh?” I looked up and saw Reita stood beside me.
“You change your clothes?” Reita whispered, leaning his face closer to me.
“What do you see?” I frowned.
Reita smiled; damn, I could immediately faint at the moment. Without warning, Reita pecked my lips. I blinked.
“Hey.. Uru can see us…” I whispered as pushed his body away from me.
Reita chuckled and turned his head to his room. “Relax… he’ is in the bathroom….” he whispered on my ear, sending hot air along my skin there.
I tsk-ed and walked away from him, because if I still stood near him he would keep teasing me. Reita really knew my weakness. I walked to the kitchen and prepared for dinner. Uruha had bought foods for dinner, maybe he knew he wouldn’t find anything to eat since he didn’t told us he would come home a bit earlier.
“By the way.. why did you change your clothes, hm?” I jumped a little because I didn’t realize Reita followed me to the kitchen.
“It’s because of you, stupid…” I said-pouting.
I saw Reita sat on the table. “Me?” he raised his eyebrows.
I turned my body and looked at him, I sighed. Reita tilted his head a little as if he waited for me to say something. I looked at Uruha’s room to make sure my brother wouldn’t came anytime soon before looked back to the stupid blonde man in front of me.
I pulled down my high collar shirt a little, enough for Reita to see what I had been hiding behind it. “See?”
“….. yes..” he looked up at me again. “I gave you that?”
I snorted; I wondered why he was so stupid sometime. “Whatever.”
“Hey.. don’t be mad… I’m just kidding okay?” he held my wrist and smiled. “I’m sorry…” he kissed my hand softly.
Oh shit, he knew very well how to make me forgave him that easily. I was lost until he pulled me down to kiss my lips with his.
“Reita… do you see my bag???”
We parted instantly as Uruha called Reita. Thank God he didn’t come out from his room yet. I looked at Reita then looked down to my feet.
“Look..” Reita held my cheeks to make me looked into his dark eyes and smiled faintly. “Keep it a secret, okay…” he said then pecked my lips for the last time before he rushed to his room.
I stood still on my feet and didn’t move even a single step. I bit my lips and turned around to see Reita’s back moved further from my sight. I smiled bitterly, I was happy he could hold me, I was happy he could kiss me as I wanted. But we still did that clandestinely. For now, I couldn’t demand anything; I just had to enjoy it as long as I could have him.
I just wondered when we could have a ‘real relationship’, didn’t hurt anyone’s heart. I just couldn’t imagine if someday Uruha found out about me and Reita. I shook my head quickly, I shouldn’t have a thought like that, I had to believe in Reita… he promised me.. yeah… he promised me.. I don’t care if you said that I’m stupid. I believed, if I could be patient, I could have him loved me wholeheartedly. I just needed to wait.
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While washing the dishes, I looked to the living room where Reita and Uruha was sitting, snuggling to each other. I could say that Uruha missed his… boyfriend, yeah.. boyfriend.. so much. Honestly, I was kind of not willing to admit that Reita was his boyfriend. But that’s the truth. Then what I am? Reita’s boyfriend, too? Our relationship was not even clear.
I sighed, I walked past the living room after finished the dishes because it was the only way to get into my room. I saw Uruha rested his head on Reita’s shoulder and closed his eyes, he might be really tired. I looked away from the scene. I’d rather do my home work than watching those painful scenery in front of me.
I sat on my desk and opened my laptop, while waiting it get started, I opened my files and looked what kind of task I had to do right then. Great. A paper, twenty pages. I still have two days to write, but wait, in the same day I had to collect another paper. Two papers for two days. Nice…. Then I began to type after collected any summary and a stack of books that I borrowed from my campus library.
At least by doing my tasks I could distract my brain from my random thoughts about Reita and Uruha or something.
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I moved my head a little an opened my eyes. The brightness from my laptop screen forced me to snap my eyes closed again. I looked around and found a few books opened around me. Wow, I didn’t realize I fell asleep while doing my tasks. I tilted my head a little but it felt hurt on the neck, maybe I fell asleep with weird position.
I looked at the clock, it was still at 2 am.. I got up from the chair and cleaned up the books from the table, turned off my laptop, I went out from my room to get some water. My throat felt sore. The kitchen was dark, so I flicked the light on so I could see clearly. I filled the glass with cold water then rested my back on the counter as I drank the water.
I turned my body and put the glass on the sink. I gasped as I felt hands sneaked around my waist, I almost yelled in panic but one of the hands covered my mouth right before my scream came out.
“It’s me..” a voice whispered to my ear. I knew that voice very well; Reita’s.
I sighed in relief, I turned my body and slapped his chest, rather hardly. “Damn it, Rei! You want me to get a heart attack huh???” I glared at him.
He chuckled and pinched my nose. I pouted.
“Sorry, baby… just love to see you pout….” He pecked my lips.
I felt his hands tightened around my waist. I lowered my head and looked at his clothed chest.
“Ru..”
I looked up. I saw Reita leant down and pressed his lips against mine. My hands ran up from his chest to his neck as I returned the kiss. I moaned lowly as he bit my lower lip and his hand slipped inside my shirt, rubbing the skin of my small back.
“I miss you…” Reita whispered against my lips.
I chuckled and rested my forehead on his chest. “Liar…” I smiled sweetly.
“You know that I’m the best liar on earth?” he kissed me again.
I didn’t know how but his last sentences made me remembered that my brother was already here. I pulled away immediately and turned my head away from his face. I saw Reita frowned.
“What’s wrong?” he asked, tilted his head a little.
I pushed his body away from me. “I just don’t want Uruha to hear us.. I’m afraid if he found out about us..” I looked at my feet.
Reita put his hand on my chin to lift my face to him, he smiled. He brushed my bangs from my forehead and kissed it softly, so warm. “Don’t you remember he’s a good sleeper?”
“But-“
“I’m sure he won’t wake up until morning…” he stroked my cheeks.
I bit my lips and rested my head on his chest once again, snuggled closer to his warm body as long as I could. “Rei…”
“Hm?”
“When we can be real lovers?” I felt his body tensed. “I don’t want to keep our relationship this way…”
“Soon..” he sighed deeply. “I promised, Ruki… but we needed a right time… you know that it’s not easy..”
I closed my eyes as I fisted on his shirt. “You know, it’s hurt to see you with Uruha….” I said in a low tone.
He didn’t say anything, just kept rocking our body back and forth. I kept thinking what I or Reita had to do to keep our relationship hidden from Uruha, and I got one. I pulled away a little and looked up at him.
“I want to sleep…” I said, rubbing my eyes.
“Want me to accompany you?” Reita smirked, I just giggled to see his pervy expressions.
“No. You said that we shouldn’t do anything that can make Uruha suspicious..” I pouted, still circling my hands around his neck.
Reita sighed. “You right…” he smiled and kissed my head.
I stepped back slowly, pecked him quickly on the lips and looked straight into his eyes. “I love you…”
“Love you too..”
He let go of my hand. I turned my body and walked back to my room, I knew Reita followed me until I reached my room.
But just before I stepped in, I turned my body again to face Reita. I sighed and looked up at him. He gave me a questioned look. “Rei.. I want to ask you something…” I took his hands with my smaller hands.
“What’s that?”
I bit my lips. “It’s for our relationship…”
“…….. okay…”
“Please stay away from me while Uruha is around…” I showed him my pleading look.
I waited but he didn’t give me any response. I saw his mouth moved a little silently said an ‘okay’ to me. I smiled and pulled my hands from him.
“Good night, Rei…” without waiting him to answer I turned around and closed the door. Resting against the door, I held my chest.
Oh God… help me… please help me to face everything more easily….
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to be continue...
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aaaaaaaaah.... long delay~~ almost two months ne? lol
I'm sorry... I didn't know why but lately I lose my muse to write... m(=____=;)m
I even write for this fic in a week!!! can you imagine?? a week for one chapter.... nyuuu~
busy? maybe...
yeaaah~ busy with Golden Bomber and stuff... lol Kenjiiii~ X3
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