Thinking Seriously
I think the phrase "with a heavy heart" is an appropriate description of how I'm doing right now. I think, anyway. I'm worried and mildly anxious, and that's tapping into self-doubts, and not being sure makes me a little sad, and next thing you know I'm all Sad Panda on the bus (because there's nothing better than being depressed on public transportation. In fact, it's probably the best place for it).
I need to lighten up a little bit, I think. I'm thinking things through very seriously though. I checked with Landlady Nancy, and she's cool with the prospective move out date of the weekend of Dec. 5th. I just need to talk to my mom and sister really and double check with them.
I'm sorta surprised at the 180 I did between seeing the studio and coming home. Maybe it's part of the fact that I've lived in this house for over a year now. I'm settled. That's what I'd tell everyone when they asked me about why I haven't moved.
My goal is to move to Seattle. It was my goal for a long time. And now it's become a more pressing goal since a new preschool has been added to my load. We haven't visited there yet, but we will at some point, and this preschool is way up north, in a place that I don't want to have to commute to from Tukwila at all. It already takes me an hour to get almost anywhere I need to be during the week. I'm so tired of that. I'm ready to be in the city, and I don't really want to wait and visit more places. I just... don't want to spend the energy doing that. So unless some unforeseen event takes place, I guess I'm saying I'm moving to a basement in Beacon Hill. That sounds like more of a downer statement than I meant it.
In other news, I'm leaving for California tomorrow morning. It's late and I haven't packed yet, because apparently I hate sleep. I don't know why I do this to myself. Anyway, I'll be back Sunday night.
I need to lighten up a little bit, I think. I'm thinking things through very seriously though. I checked with Landlady Nancy, and she's cool with the prospective move out date of the weekend of Dec. 5th. I just need to talk to my mom and sister really and double check with them.
I'm sorta surprised at the 180 I did between seeing the studio and coming home. Maybe it's part of the fact that I've lived in this house for over a year now. I'm settled. That's what I'd tell everyone when they asked me about why I haven't moved.
My goal is to move to Seattle. It was my goal for a long time. And now it's become a more pressing goal since a new preschool has been added to my load. We haven't visited there yet, but we will at some point, and this preschool is way up north, in a place that I don't want to have to commute to from Tukwila at all. It already takes me an hour to get almost anywhere I need to be during the week. I'm so tired of that. I'm ready to be in the city, and I don't really want to wait and visit more places. I just... don't want to spend the energy doing that. So unless some unforeseen event takes place, I guess I'm saying I'm moving to a basement in Beacon Hill. That sounds like more of a downer statement than I meant it.
In other news, I'm leaving for California tomorrow morning. It's late and I haven't packed yet, because apparently I hate sleep. I don't know why I do this to myself. Anyway, I'll be back Sunday night.