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WHY did I decide to have a child ?
Edit : Okay, I feel better now, so I'll explain.
I've said it before here : I did not feel ready to have a child, but I felt like I would never be, so I chose to have one anyway, despite my instinct saying "I won't manage, I don't have the patience".
So no, I don't have the patience. I've been stuck inside for the last two weeks, barely got out twice for shopping, just one hour each time. When Alice sleeps, I spend my time waiting for the moment she'll wake up and ask for food. When she's awake, I can't leave her alone in her cradle for more than five minutes in a row, before she starts crying. If there's someone with me at home, it's okay, because I can at least chat, but alone like today, I just can't do a thing... I started to feel depressed, and after a couple of vain attempts to get her to sleep, I could not stop crying. I feel like I'm in a cage, it's awful.
Edit : Okay, I feel better now, so I'll explain.
I've said it before here : I did not feel ready to have a child, but I felt like I would never be, so I chose to have one anyway, despite my instinct saying "I won't manage, I don't have the patience".
So no, I don't have the patience. I've been stuck inside for the last two weeks, barely got out twice for shopping, just one hour each time. When Alice sleeps, I spend my time waiting for the moment she'll wake up and ask for food. When she's awake, I can't leave her alone in her cradle for more than five minutes in a row, before she starts crying. If there's someone with me at home, it's okay, because I can at least chat, but alone like today, I just can't do a thing... I started to feel depressed, and after a couple of vain attempts to get her to sleep, I could not stop crying. I feel like I'm in a cage, it's awful.