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So I'll attempt this again. Everytime things start to get better, everything turns to shit. I feel like such a fucking failure in school. I try so hard to do well, and all the time I spend studying for tests or quizzes seems like such a waste of time because I do horrible on them. I fucking hate school. Everyone else around me does really well...and here I am getting D's and F's on my tests. I just want to be successful. I just want to be out of fucking high school. Everyone thinks it's so fucking great, when really it's just a waste of time. I just want to get out of here and go do something I actually want to do. Not stuck doing fucking geometry and chemistry that I won't need. And I know what you're thinking. "Oh Catie, you're not a failure. Stop being so dramatic." But I just can't be successful. I can't just pass my fucking tests like I want to. I can't stop feeling like a failure. I try so hard to do well, and to make my parents proud, and to show everyone that I can do well. I'm sick of trying to please everyone. I've been a bitch lately because I'm sick of trying to be all sweet and shit so I can win people's approval. So you know what? If you don't like me you can go fuck yourself. Because I don't give a shit.