Harry Potter! (How's that for an irrelevant title?;o)
Haha, I like that I haven't posted in over 2 months. Tehe. :oP
Well, a lot has happened since then, sometimes it can be a bit overwhelming. I feel like updating to organize my thoughts, so please enjoy:
*I'm going to CSU Fullerton! Tomorrow I'm meeting with the head of the theatre department. Woot woot! I'm really excited about that! If all goes well, I'll be starting classes Wednesday!
*I'm also double majoring in philosophy which I'm incredibly excited about too. I can't wait to be at a University, in a new area, meeting new people and studying/exercising my passions.
*I need to find a place to live... and a job.
*Karma has come back my way. I'm falling for someone who opened up to me sometime ago and I wasn't in a position to say yes. Now feelings has rekindled and it seems to be too late, since tada! Now he's unavailable. Haha, I can't believe this has become an issue in my life. I thought I no longer felt that way about him and then a few weeks ago we met up and I saw this growth in him that was so attractive. (Haha, I'm so ridiculous.) It's weird. I want to say something but I know we could do nothing and I doubt he feels the same, he seems very happy. I don't want to be a vulture either, waiting for the break up. No way that's just shady and wrong. Well, all in all karma is teaching me to be respectful and knowing that letting him be happy is the best thing I can give to him. Perhaps down the road an opportunity may arise and I'll appreciate it even more. Life goes on.
*On a side note: My brother just tried to shoot me with a banana. I fell for it. Hahaha.
*The other night I was with a close friend (we'll call her Rita) who was extremely drunk and I found myself playing sitter. We had an intense 3 hours together where she completely broke down and I saw her empty broken shell before me. Once again there was nothing I could do and I realized just how much she's put herself in a hopeless hole that now I don't ever see her getting out of it. She was drunk so I couldn't really get through to her, so I gave her a hug and put her to bed. She told me not to tell anyone the details of the night and her pain; of course, I promised. I crashed on her couch and the next morning she didn't even remember me driving her home, staying the night and of course anything that had taken place during those three hours. It's so weird. I lived in a very intense moment with a person who has no recollection of it. I want to talk about it and learn from it but I cannot talk to anyone else about what exactly happened and I don't have the heart to tell Rita the details of her blackout. She's not ready to hear it. It's so weird. So weird. Our friendship used to be so powerful and now it's a rubble of lies and falsehood.
*The economy is scary right now. I hate worrying about money but with the new semester coming up and having to move to a new town, I'm a little uneasy. That's the biggest thing that's worrying me right. Freakin' money. It'll all work out. But ah! Isn't the economy just ridiculous right now?
So yes. Things are a bit overwhelming. A lot is happening. And I find myself not having a lot of time to really reflect and grow. This world is very busy right now. It's moving incredibly fast and right now all I can do is hold on.
Now, I have to go work own my World Religions term paper.
Have a wonderful day. See you in two months? :oP
Well, a lot has happened since then, sometimes it can be a bit overwhelming. I feel like updating to organize my thoughts, so please enjoy:
*I'm going to CSU Fullerton! Tomorrow I'm meeting with the head of the theatre department. Woot woot! I'm really excited about that! If all goes well, I'll be starting classes Wednesday!
*I'm also double majoring in philosophy which I'm incredibly excited about too. I can't wait to be at a University, in a new area, meeting new people and studying/exercising my passions.
*I need to find a place to live... and a job.
*Karma has come back my way. I'm falling for someone who opened up to me sometime ago and I wasn't in a position to say yes. Now feelings has rekindled and it seems to be too late, since tada! Now he's unavailable. Haha, I can't believe this has become an issue in my life. I thought I no longer felt that way about him and then a few weeks ago we met up and I saw this growth in him that was so attractive. (Haha, I'm so ridiculous.) It's weird. I want to say something but I know we could do nothing and I doubt he feels the same, he seems very happy. I don't want to be a vulture either, waiting for the break up. No way that's just shady and wrong. Well, all in all karma is teaching me to be respectful and knowing that letting him be happy is the best thing I can give to him. Perhaps down the road an opportunity may arise and I'll appreciate it even more. Life goes on.
*On a side note: My brother just tried to shoot me with a banana. I fell for it. Hahaha.
*The other night I was with a close friend (we'll call her Rita) who was extremely drunk and I found myself playing sitter. We had an intense 3 hours together where she completely broke down and I saw her empty broken shell before me. Once again there was nothing I could do and I realized just how much she's put herself in a hopeless hole that now I don't ever see her getting out of it. She was drunk so I couldn't really get through to her, so I gave her a hug and put her to bed. She told me not to tell anyone the details of the night and her pain; of course, I promised. I crashed on her couch and the next morning she didn't even remember me driving her home, staying the night and of course anything that had taken place during those three hours. It's so weird. I lived in a very intense moment with a person who has no recollection of it. I want to talk about it and learn from it but I cannot talk to anyone else about what exactly happened and I don't have the heart to tell Rita the details of her blackout. She's not ready to hear it. It's so weird. So weird. Our friendship used to be so powerful and now it's a rubble of lies and falsehood.
*The economy is scary right now. I hate worrying about money but with the new semester coming up and having to move to a new town, I'm a little uneasy. That's the biggest thing that's worrying me right. Freakin' money. It'll all work out. But ah! Isn't the economy just ridiculous right now?
So yes. Things are a bit overwhelming. A lot is happening. And I find myself not having a lot of time to really reflect and grow. This world is very busy right now. It's moving incredibly fast and right now all I can do is hold on.
Now, I have to go work own my World Religions term paper.
Have a wonderful day. See you in two months? :oP