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Wow.
Words cannot describe how I feel right now...
I feel so happy for this person. He's happy and it just makes my world to see that he is. I admire and love this person so much. Yes, I'm in love with this person. I have been for over ... wow has it been three years? But it's a love I could never express not out of fear but because he was taken and so many different things... And I could never do that. And now... I know it's never going to happen. And today made me realize that. I let go. And the feeling is so... bittersweet? I don't know, it's happiness for them and sadness for coming to terms with something I should have realized long ago. It seems so silly now! I think I always really knew that; I never tried to pursue it- that makes sense. It's just... there's something about him that makes me smile and want to be around him. I don't know what it is. (Perhaps, it's because he's Jewish?) Tehe, ah Jewish boys, I love them so much. When will I get my own Jewish boy? (And why is there no Jewish boys at my school? ...I'm at a theatre school!) :oP
It's silly now. Haha, it would have never worked. My admiration and adoration for him would have wilted at the first sign that he's mortal. Perhaps, it never was love... Just a yearning to be like him. So funny, clever, artistic, kind, honest, good hearted... well, the list goes on and on. I kept him in the lime light and never wanted to see a blotch. That's where he'll remain. Among those I will always admire. I hope to marry someone like him. And eh, if the guy's Jewish, that'll be a big plus. :o)
P.S. Have you ever noticed that in whatever mood you are in, you can find a Beatles song that fits it? (And there will be that one lyric you didn't even remember that will just speak to you in such truth and sincerity... it's so eerie, but at the same time, it makes you smile in recognition and think, "I'm not alone, we're all human; we're all in this together. Look around and smile. Befriend and bond with the world."
Words cannot describe how I feel right now...
I feel so happy for this person. He's happy and it just makes my world to see that he is. I admire and love this person so much. Yes, I'm in love with this person. I have been for over ... wow has it been three years? But it's a love I could never express not out of fear but because he was taken and so many different things... And I could never do that. And now... I know it's never going to happen. And today made me realize that. I let go. And the feeling is so... bittersweet? I don't know, it's happiness for them and sadness for coming to terms with something I should have realized long ago. It seems so silly now! I think I always really knew that; I never tried to pursue it- that makes sense. It's just... there's something about him that makes me smile and want to be around him. I don't know what it is. (Perhaps, it's because he's Jewish?) Tehe, ah Jewish boys, I love them so much. When will I get my own Jewish boy? (And why is there no Jewish boys at my school? ...I'm at a theatre school!) :oP
It's silly now. Haha, it would have never worked. My admiration and adoration for him would have wilted at the first sign that he's mortal. Perhaps, it never was love... Just a yearning to be like him. So funny, clever, artistic, kind, honest, good hearted... well, the list goes on and on. I kept him in the lime light and never wanted to see a blotch. That's where he'll remain. Among those I will always admire. I hope to marry someone like him. And eh, if the guy's Jewish, that'll be a big plus. :o)
P.S. Have you ever noticed that in whatever mood you are in, you can find a Beatles song that fits it? (And there will be that one lyric you didn't even remember that will just speak to you in such truth and sincerity... it's so eerie, but at the same time, it makes you smile in recognition and think, "I'm not alone, we're all human; we're all in this together. Look around and smile. Befriend and bond with the world."