Jan 31, 2004 10:10
Somehow we played the worst show ever last night and someone still liked us. It was weird. I felt like ass after we played. It was depressing.
I think that things are going well, but I guess that I feel like we can do better.
I think Jill doesn't really want to talk to me, but has some sort of use for me. I don't know what the deal is. She emailed me this two weeks ago:
"Hello Reid how are things going? Pretty good for me. Sorry I haven't called you back yet but I lost my phone last week and then left it at home so my mom is going to bring it to me tomorrow. Yeah i've been having a problem
with losing things. Moving in and out of the dorms I always forget things. I guess you could say college is OK I still feel like i'm in high school. Probably my fault of going to a smaller school. I know things were crazy when we stopped talking and that was all me. I guess my age come out in that situation. But you are a good guy.. and I would like to still be
friend.. I hope everything is going good. I'll try to call you later.. Bye Bye"
However has not actually called me and didnt respond when I IMed her the other day. She's probably just thinking that being nice to me will release some sort of bad karma and now that she has done that, tis time to blow me off again...
Fuck everyone. Why can't people just be honest and nice? Like, if she didn't really give a shit about being friends with me, I'd rather have just never heard from her again.
Oh, and here's a hint, it doesnt matter what school you go to, people act like theyre in high school everywhere. If you want to not feel like you're in high school, actually keep the friends that are over it...
Reid