curse you, literature!
I'M GOING TO FAIL MY 1ST PAPER! PERIOD!
i went into the hall feeling confident, and left feeling down and depressed.
i did study! i studied every single day, looking through my notes till the very end.
but when i sat there with my pen and paper... there was nothing in my head!
NOTHING AT ALL! WHY?!
i freaked out when nothing came to my head.
after half an hour, my paper was still as clean as white sheets!
i started to panic... tears filled my eyes but i kept it in. my pride wouldn't allow me to shed tears in public.
when i started to write... i didn't know what was i writing. were they the right points? i don't know...
after the paper, i sat on the chair restlessly. totally drained and exhausted.
i started to wonder,"is literature really suitable? is it for me? do i love it?"
no... i don't like literature... maybe i should apply for a change in my degree...
maybe i should drop literature and take up sociology?
i'm lost...
昨日の試験は超難しかった…答え出せなかった…答案で書いたのは正しいのか、分からない…してる時、ちょっと泣いた…勉強したのに、何で何も書けなかったの?!
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