Confused....
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Why is it when you think you know what you want things tend to make it more difficult? Why is it when I lay there at night looking up at the ceiling that all can seem to do is think about you, and the way you make me feel? Why is it then that I think of him too? I really don't have answers to these questions. I wish I knew the them. I know I love you, but do you really love me too. Where do all these complications come from...why do they exist? Why is it no matter what happens...it seems like there are always things in our way? I guess in my heart I know that all the pain and the tears I've cried aren't worth it all. No matter how much I love you and care about you those aren't making me happy, and all I feel lately is that I have been hurt more than what you realize. Parts of me wish that you honestly knew how it felt...how much I hurt. I'm not the type to go and hurt someone because they hurt me...it's not in my heart to do such a thing. No matter what my heart may tell me...I'll always love you...but sometimes I think it would be easier if we spent time apart and for you to figure out who it is you truly want. As well for me. To be hurt to cry...to find sorrow and pain greater from feeling betrayed then. What if the chances are that we would be happier with others what are the chances in our life that things will work out...All I know that is no matter what has happened I have stood by your side, but can you stand by myside if I were to say I wanted us to take a break and see what happens then too. To see if you are actually in love with her...and if I am with him...could you do that? Or is that just asking way to much? I'm not saying that this is good bye, I'm just saying how I feel...and what's on my mind. I wish there were answers to these type of problems.