Just some thoughts
Well when does one say that it is enough? How do you know when the time for things to end? I really don't want things to end, but that is what it feels like it is doing. I feel as if everything is falling apart. I don't know how to explain it. I feel so drawn towards him and yet, at the same time I'm not sure what is completely going on. I wish that things were clear. I wish things made sense for once, but they don't. All the ideas that I have had are no longer making any sense at all to me. I just want them to make sense and no they don't. I feel as though my world is coming down. And there is nothing I can do. I seek answers, but can't seem to find them. I guess I need to allow my problems to be taken in God's hands. Lately I have felt really distant in my faith and I just hope that eventually, I won't.
Hmm...and another thing I have just have felt really down lately. I have no clue on what is going on with me nothing seems to be making any sense at all anymore. I feel like everything is spiralling out of control. I just fill as though I have no clue on what is going on. I guess there is nothing I can do. Except wait for time to pass and let the will be done of God. It just seems so hard knowing that I'm not in control of my life and I never really am. God knows how all of it will work out in the end. I just like having the feeling I am in control even though I am not.
Hmm...and another thing I have just have felt really down lately. I have no clue on what is going on with me nothing seems to be making any sense at all anymore. I feel like everything is spiralling out of control. I just fill as though I have no clue on what is going on. I guess there is nothing I can do. Except wait for time to pass and let the will be done of God. It just seems so hard knowing that I'm not in control of my life and I never really am. God knows how all of it will work out in the end. I just like having the feeling I am in control even though I am not.