i could drink a case of you
it's been a while, but a nice while.
halloween is next week, and though ive already started my celebrating, there is more to do. i just dont know if i can handle it. there's been an awful lot of it lately and i just dont know if my brain or my body can handle. i just want to sleep for a day or two. i want the rain to come so that i might lie in bed for a few days and just rest.
it's this time of year that makes it increasingly more difficult to leave turlock. my friends, my family, the weather..but as always, the heat will come and i will change my mind.
this past week i've baked cookies three times.
i've been having second thoughts about children.
and love.
perhaps those things arent so bad. once you allow yourself to love and be loved, the thought of a family is actually sort of appealing.
i have changed so much in the past two years and there was a point in my life where i had to choose between two clearly defined paths and i chose the road back to turlock. now, it may not have been the wisest choice..but i made it. everything was for a reason. I have learned to love in a new and different way. i have learned to love myself even through the pain of not wanting to.
i want a new cat.
halloween is next week, and though ive already started my celebrating, there is more to do. i just dont know if i can handle it. there's been an awful lot of it lately and i just dont know if my brain or my body can handle. i just want to sleep for a day or two. i want the rain to come so that i might lie in bed for a few days and just rest.
it's this time of year that makes it increasingly more difficult to leave turlock. my friends, my family, the weather..but as always, the heat will come and i will change my mind.
this past week i've baked cookies three times.
i've been having second thoughts about children.
and love.
perhaps those things arent so bad. once you allow yourself to love and be loved, the thought of a family is actually sort of appealing.
i have changed so much in the past two years and there was a point in my life where i had to choose between two clearly defined paths and i chose the road back to turlock. now, it may not have been the wisest choice..but i made it. everything was for a reason. I have learned to love in a new and different way. i have learned to love myself even through the pain of not wanting to.
i want a new cat.