possibilities

Dec 23, 2007 19:27

life is going very well right now.
after everything thats happened its nice to step back once in a while and take in the fact that after all that neglect people are still taking me back in a way. i have friends who are turning out to be very good to me after i managed to be such a peice of shit.

two weeks ago i came up with a plan to try and be a better person, as it would turn out that better person was always there. so it didnt take as much trying as i thought it would.

im working hard at my job, im rebuilding friendships with good people and ex lovers, im working out and can feel the pain in my body telling me im going to get better, im seeing something new in myself everytime i look in the mirror. and maybe, for the first time in a while, i like who im seeing.

i have new goals and new devotions, alot of it is thanks to the people i work with. their age and experience helped me open my eyes and realize the end of the world is when i want it to be, not when circumstances tell me it is. when they laughed at me for being depressed over what happened, fucking laughed at me! i realized they werent ever being uncompassionate, they were being realistic. they knew it wasnt the end, and now. im laughing too!

theres so much beauty out there and i cant wait to see it all! maybe the band will work out, maybe ill go back to college, hell, maybe ill say fuck it and move to indiana with ashley. its a sweet deal, in a good life.

nothings promised, but im happy and thats good enough for me.

x-mas in two days, NC in three.
merry christmas everyone, stay safe and know i love you.
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