im loosing my mind....and im content.
lately life is based on consuming. products, music, clothing styles. catalysts are missing from the big picture its never up to anyone when to change its the circumstances that make the person want to change if you could just sit on your ass and watcht tv all day and make millions i guarantee you wouldnt pass up that offer. people claim to superior to others when in retrospect there pieces of shit just like you and me.
there no different because of there cars or money. they still bitch and moan like the rest of us. usually more. alot of people need to kill themselves asap. the president for one. and im sick of wanting to be in love and have someone there for me. its bullshit. things never work out they way i invision them, ever. and probally never will. you are a tease and a confusing one at that. honestly i have no idea why im attracted to people anymore. really i kinda just want to say fuck it. and off myself.hahaha jk. but i wont cause honestly i love myself way to much to ever do that. cause when it comes down to it there is no one i love more than me. so im doin it on the down low. with smoking a pack a day and drinking way to much. i honestly dont care. life doesnt work out how you plan it. every kid in high school is filled up to the brim with t.v. bullshit that there goin somewhere and there the future. when reality is there more than likely goin to be pumping your gas or dying for your freedoms. i honestly dont know where im goin, and right now im really not fine with it. at all. i want to be a pyschologist but it feels like im turning my back on music. which is the true path i want to follow. and no i dont want to be in some fucking lame ass band. i want to produce and record music. ever since eight grade ive kinda hated people and god. im learning to embrace god and have an even stronger hate towards people. why? cause there fucking dumb. they all follow the motions and have no originality they just consume consume oh and fuck...and keep contributing to the already over populated race of autistic americans. which sadly one of them got in office. this is all random as fuck... everything that is on here is on here cause it poped into my head as i was typing it..
so if you dont understand half of it..dont worry about it cause either do I.
oh and fuck insombia.. its lame.