mother minded

[regretedkisses]

my mother had another breakdown last night.
called me at work
and
the
sky
fell

it's far from the first time she's pulled such antics and
it wont be the last
but the panic
in my chest
feels
brand new (every time)

driving home,
racing racing racing,
and what if it's the last time?

she was okay, really.
and
i was a big girl
and
handled it.

later,
when she was sleeping off the sedative
her therapist suggested she take

i congregated
with hillary
and will
and
Brian
and cried about the
INJUSTICE  of it all
(i couldn't aspire to anything higher)