seriously..
i think its absolutey amazing when you realize something that you never did before. today i realized that all my "woe is me..i dont have a job..im so bored.." complaining is so lame. this time in philadelphia has been amazing..i have learned so much. im thankful that i havent had a job. if i wouldve had a job i wouldnt have had all this time on my hands and i wouldnt have been so desparate for God. im so thankful for this. ive learned so much about prayer, servanthood, loving your neighbor, trusting God even when you feel like your life is going no where, desiring to love people instead of feeling the need to be loved, not being lazy...the list goes on. what a blessing it is to be here. my life is not my own..i keep getting reminded of that. i may not know what is coming next but i know God does and i totally have a peace in that. thank you Jesus. i cant even begin to talk about the wonderful friends i have made here. theyre amazing and so loving and i've learned so much about being selfless and considering others before yourself from them. im in awe of how God works. this season is definately different but so much of what i need. "when i doubt your love, how wonderful you are, your hands reach out for me...when i give up, you comfort me with hope...you are the shephard of my soul..your love will never let me go...you hold me in your arms...keep me safe from harm..i put my faith in you..your promises are true.." amen