Something really weird
At our spring dance May 12th, Mike Shoemaker did tarot card readings. When I had my reading, it said I am looking for a strong male role model. And it also said that I will find a guy who I think is my strong male role model, but he turns out to be really dark.
Weeeeeeeeell........I found somebody who I thought could be my strong male role model. He went to West High, and was in the Fedoras. I have a huge crush on him. He seems sweet, but he always deleted my facebook wall posts, never replied to my emails, and then he unfriended me on facebook, and I DON'T KNOW WHY! I sent him a pm on facebook telling him how it made me feel, but he hasn't replied, and I'm worried he won't reply, and he won't understand how crushing it is that he's doing this to me. So maybe he's that guy who is the dark guy.
And I have another strong male role model, Chris Roberts. He did a lot of stuff (cross country, jazz band, show choir, Mannerchor, Chamber Choir, a class at the university, tennis, and a bunch of stuff I can't think of at the moment), and still managed to be level-headed. And even tho he's going off to St. Olaf next year, he'll still make time to email me and whatnot. He always makes time for me, and even when he's busy, we still manage to talk on the phone. The only bad thing about me leaving to go out east on Thursday is that I'll be away from Chris for 3 weeks, but we promised to write letters while I'm at camp. He is my best friend, and everything I wish I could be. I'm really gonna miss him. I let him read my Yes Shame monolouge and he thought it was beautiful. At least there is somebody out in this world who likes my writing. Besides Janna Ozzello and Britt Rios. I wish others would see I have a knack for writing.
Anyway, I think it's sorta creepy how accurate my reading was. Any other thoughts on this? Hit me with some comments.
I was sleeping and right in the middle of a good dream
Like all at once I wake up from something that keeps knocking at my brain
Before I go insane I hold my pillow to my head
And spring up in my bed screaming out the words I dread
I think I love you
This morning I woke up with this feeling
I didn't know how to deal with and so I just decided to myself
I'd hide it to myself and never talk about it
And did not go and shout it when you walked into the room
I think I love you
I think I love you so what am I so afraid of
I'm afraid that I'm not sure of a love there is no cure for
I think I love you isn't that what life is made of
Though it worries me to say that I never felt this way
I don't know what I'm up against
I don't know what it's all about
I got so much to think about
Hey, I think I love you so what am I so afraid of
I'm afraid that I'm not sure of a love there is no cure for
I think I love you isn't that what life is made of
Though it worries me to say I never felt this way
Believe me you really don't have to worry
I only wanna make you happy and if you say "hey go away" I will
But I think better still I'd better stay around and love you
Do you think I have a case let me ask you to your face
Do you think you love me?
I think I love you
I think I love you
(I think I love you)
I think I love you
(I think I love you)
I think I love you
(I think I love you)
I think I love you
(I think I love you).
I think I am going to do that song if they do a 1970's week on AI when I'm on it. I'll let you know.
I might call Chris in a bit to tell him my discovery. He might find it flattering he's my role model. But it's the truth. Here are some more lyrics that shows how I feel about Chris:
Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.
And he happens to love that song. It reminds me of him so much. But don't think I have a crush on him, becaus I don't, and could never like him in that way. And besides, he's marrying Zoe. And Chris said I could be in their wedding. Yay.
Well, I think I should take my medicine now.
<3 <3 <3,
***-Lily-***
Weeeeeeeeell........I found somebody who I thought could be my strong male role model. He went to West High, and was in the Fedoras. I have a huge crush on him. He seems sweet, but he always deleted my facebook wall posts, never replied to my emails, and then he unfriended me on facebook, and I DON'T KNOW WHY! I sent him a pm on facebook telling him how it made me feel, but he hasn't replied, and I'm worried he won't reply, and he won't understand how crushing it is that he's doing this to me. So maybe he's that guy who is the dark guy.
And I have another strong male role model, Chris Roberts. He did a lot of stuff (cross country, jazz band, show choir, Mannerchor, Chamber Choir, a class at the university, tennis, and a bunch of stuff I can't think of at the moment), and still managed to be level-headed. And even tho he's going off to St. Olaf next year, he'll still make time to email me and whatnot. He always makes time for me, and even when he's busy, we still manage to talk on the phone. The only bad thing about me leaving to go out east on Thursday is that I'll be away from Chris for 3 weeks, but we promised to write letters while I'm at camp. He is my best friend, and everything I wish I could be. I'm really gonna miss him. I let him read my Yes Shame monolouge and he thought it was beautiful. At least there is somebody out in this world who likes my writing. Besides Janna Ozzello and Britt Rios. I wish others would see I have a knack for writing.
Anyway, I think it's sorta creepy how accurate my reading was. Any other thoughts on this? Hit me with some comments.
I was sleeping and right in the middle of a good dream
Like all at once I wake up from something that keeps knocking at my brain
Before I go insane I hold my pillow to my head
And spring up in my bed screaming out the words I dread
I think I love you
This morning I woke up with this feeling
I didn't know how to deal with and so I just decided to myself
I'd hide it to myself and never talk about it
And did not go and shout it when you walked into the room
I think I love you
I think I love you so what am I so afraid of
I'm afraid that I'm not sure of a love there is no cure for
I think I love you isn't that what life is made of
Though it worries me to say that I never felt this way
I don't know what I'm up against
I don't know what it's all about
I got so much to think about
Hey, I think I love you so what am I so afraid of
I'm afraid that I'm not sure of a love there is no cure for
I think I love you isn't that what life is made of
Though it worries me to say I never felt this way
Believe me you really don't have to worry
I only wanna make you happy and if you say "hey go away" I will
But I think better still I'd better stay around and love you
Do you think I have a case let me ask you to your face
Do you think you love me?
I think I love you
I think I love you
(I think I love you)
I think I love you
(I think I love you)
I think I love you
(I think I love you)
I think I love you
(I think I love you).
I think I am going to do that song if they do a 1970's week on AI when I'm on it. I'll let you know.
I might call Chris in a bit to tell him my discovery. He might find it flattering he's my role model. But it's the truth. Here are some more lyrics that shows how I feel about Chris:
Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.
And he happens to love that song. It reminds me of him so much. But don't think I have a crush on him, becaus I don't, and could never like him in that way. And besides, he's marrying Zoe. And Chris said I could be in their wedding. Yay.
Well, I think I should take my medicine now.
<3 <3 <3,
***-Lily-***