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[reggers]

god...manana...i know if i go, it'll just b last weekend alllll over again, and we all saw how much fun that was! and if i don't go, i'll get shit. everyone keps telling me to leave the situation and maybe they're right. but the whole thing makes me think, how much shit do u take from ur friends? like obviously ur friends should b honest and should b the ones who can tell u anything, but at what point do u draw the line btwn honesty and just plain meaness? how much of her crap should i take? god, im like those stupid bitches who keep going back to the boyfriend who abuses them. and all their friends on the outside always tell ask them "y do u keep going back??" and they make the excuse "he really loves me, he doesn't mean it when he hits me."so am i that stupid gf who keeps going back? should i take their advice? or is it time to not take anyone's advice and do what i feel i need to do? y is it that i always lose friends? or is that just part of life? is she right, do i really think im better than everyone else? she's not the 1st to say it so maybe it is true.....

y have i been so unhappy lately? not like emo depressed, but im never in a constantly happy mood. y am i never happy where i am? if im here i wanna b in irvine, when im there i wanna b up north.....

and good lord i despise party america!