It's the same thing everyday.
I really want to be a nice person.
It's funny to be mean, and it's also really easy. But it's not REALLY who I want to be. I do it because I feel corny when I'm being nice for some reason, but the thing is, I have a lot of mean friends who laugh when I'm mean. So I do it for them, but from now on, I think I'm going to put that all behind me. I don't want to be the friend who gets the position of being the meanest on that quiz that's going around on everybody's ljs.
I've realized that I can look in the mirror and say something nice about what I look like, but I find it difficult to say something nice about the person I am. Talk about pathetic. I mean, I always speak before I think and what I say doesn't REALLY represent me. I don't think I'm the person everyone sees me as. It's just that, my self-motivation level is quite low. That's what I've been working on. It's easy to go to swim practice and find an excuse to cheat the sets. It's easy to make fun of someone. And it's easy to not do my schoolwork. Self-motivation and self-control are the things that make it easy for me to NOT do those things.
I'm sorry that I come across the way I do.
I'm sorry to Monica because, even though it makes me sad to admit it, I was definitely in the wrong.
I'm sorry to Mr. Breunig for always making fun of him. He tries to be a good person.
I'm sorry to Ashley Haladay. She's not so bad, really.
I'm sorry to everyone I've ever made feel bad, actually.
I'm going to TRY (I know) from now on.
"It's so easy to be dishonest through embellishment and little lies. Practice being honest, especially with yourself. You'll feel more confident when you have nothing to hide."
Exactly!
On a lighter note, I'm listening to my summer orchestra CD. Even though I like all music, I think the type that I probably like best is classical. When it comes to music, I'm not really into doing research about who I'm listening to because it's really just about listening to the music for me. A lot of people have 'favorite bands,' but I just like whatever I'm in the mood for. A lot of times I'll get a new CD and listen to it over and over. Then after maybe a week of obsessing, I'll get into something else. But I always like classical music. It makes me so happy. It's so beautiful.
Wow, I really canNOT wait until summer. I really do like snow, but I'm ready for a change. I miss working at the swim club, not having to worry about schoolwork, and having shaved legs.
AND, I also can't wait until spring break.
I'm going to HAWAII!!!
Ah! I don't think I've ever been this excited about going on vacation before. Maybe it's because I'm really looking forward to warm weather. I just hope my dad doesn't make us have agendas and go to every single museum and landmark like he always does. :/
Kate Mansfield told me yesterday that I looked French. I wanted to kiss her. I love everything French. It's the thing I have that no one else does. That's probably the reason I like it so much. It's MY thing. I just hope I can make a decent living out of it. You know, like being the Ambassodor to France or something. ;)
I have a party to plan; There will be more steps on how to be a corny self-improving person later. :D
It's funny to be mean, and it's also really easy. But it's not REALLY who I want to be. I do it because I feel corny when I'm being nice for some reason, but the thing is, I have a lot of mean friends who laugh when I'm mean. So I do it for them, but from now on, I think I'm going to put that all behind me. I don't want to be the friend who gets the position of being the meanest on that quiz that's going around on everybody's ljs.
I've realized that I can look in the mirror and say something nice about what I look like, but I find it difficult to say something nice about the person I am. Talk about pathetic. I mean, I always speak before I think and what I say doesn't REALLY represent me. I don't think I'm the person everyone sees me as. It's just that, my self-motivation level is quite low. That's what I've been working on. It's easy to go to swim practice and find an excuse to cheat the sets. It's easy to make fun of someone. And it's easy to not do my schoolwork. Self-motivation and self-control are the things that make it easy for me to NOT do those things.
I'm sorry that I come across the way I do.
I'm sorry to Monica because, even though it makes me sad to admit it, I was definitely in the wrong.
I'm sorry to Mr. Breunig for always making fun of him. He tries to be a good person.
I'm sorry to Ashley Haladay. She's not so bad, really.
I'm sorry to everyone I've ever made feel bad, actually.
I'm going to TRY (I know) from now on.
"It's so easy to be dishonest through embellishment and little lies. Practice being honest, especially with yourself. You'll feel more confident when you have nothing to hide."
Exactly!
On a lighter note, I'm listening to my summer orchestra CD. Even though I like all music, I think the type that I probably like best is classical. When it comes to music, I'm not really into doing research about who I'm listening to because it's really just about listening to the music for me. A lot of people have 'favorite bands,' but I just like whatever I'm in the mood for. A lot of times I'll get a new CD and listen to it over and over. Then after maybe a week of obsessing, I'll get into something else. But I always like classical music. It makes me so happy. It's so beautiful.
Wow, I really canNOT wait until summer. I really do like snow, but I'm ready for a change. I miss working at the swim club, not having to worry about schoolwork, and having shaved legs.
AND, I also can't wait until spring break.
I'm going to HAWAII!!!
Ah! I don't think I've ever been this excited about going on vacation before. Maybe it's because I'm really looking forward to warm weather. I just hope my dad doesn't make us have agendas and go to every single museum and landmark like he always does. :/
Kate Mansfield told me yesterday that I looked French. I wanted to kiss her. I love everything French. It's the thing I have that no one else does. That's probably the reason I like it so much. It's MY thing. I just hope I can make a decent living out of it. You know, like being the Ambassodor to France or something. ;)
I have a party to plan; There will be more steps on how to be a corny self-improving person later. :D