Alright, I can't help it anymore
I have to let this out a little bit, I hope you all don't mind me being a little weepy here tonight.
I am missing two people severely tonight. To the point where all I want in this world right now is to see them face to face and just hug them for an hour or more. I haven't felt this sad in a very long time. This was to be expected for sure, but now that the day is here, all I want is to be able to rewind a year or two and just go through it all again.
I don't know if I will be seeing Jeromy once more tomorrow, or if it's going to be a long time until I next see him. Probably woulda made a much bigger deal out of him leaving the house earlier this afternoon if I had felt like I do now - that I probably won't be seeing him tomorrow. He hasn't even left the state yet, much less the country, but I miss him like hell. I mean, how do you really even begin to prepare for someone who you see on an almost daily basis just being in another country? I don't know, I obviously didn't think about it enough. Tonight I'm just a wreck.
Been a lot of talk this last weekend and this week of missing Nicki a lot, too - and being missed in return. We've been having some good talks lately and are getting to communicate better I think. Tonight we talked about what we miss about one another, and it was nice to know that stuff. I am sure that missing Jeromy is heightening the fact that I miss Nicki a ton, too... but it really doesn't help anything.
It does help to think that we gave Jeromy a good send off. It also helps knowing that there is no other person on this earth that I'd rather see whisk Jeromy out of this country than Synde. Up until this weekend, I really didn't know her. I can finally say we've spent some time together, and I can honestly say that there is definetly no one more perfect for Jeromy than she.
It helps to know that Nicki and I really are trying hard to communicate and to understand one another. I hate fighting with her so much, and I have to say my heart has never felt so broken as it has in the last month. I've never felt such a connection to someone so fast as with Nicki, and while it hurts like nothing else in this world right now, I wouldn't trade what I've shared with her for a thing.
I have two people in my life that I miss right now, and I think that the way I am feeling right now is a testament to how much they mean to me. To Nicki - the most amazing woman I've ever known - I love you. To Jeromy - the most amazing hoser I've ever known - I love you. Always know that there are special places for you both in my heart.
I am missing two people severely tonight. To the point where all I want in this world right now is to see them face to face and just hug them for an hour or more. I haven't felt this sad in a very long time. This was to be expected for sure, but now that the day is here, all I want is to be able to rewind a year or two and just go through it all again.
I don't know if I will be seeing Jeromy once more tomorrow, or if it's going to be a long time until I next see him. Probably woulda made a much bigger deal out of him leaving the house earlier this afternoon if I had felt like I do now - that I probably won't be seeing him tomorrow. He hasn't even left the state yet, much less the country, but I miss him like hell. I mean, how do you really even begin to prepare for someone who you see on an almost daily basis just being in another country? I don't know, I obviously didn't think about it enough. Tonight I'm just a wreck.
Been a lot of talk this last weekend and this week of missing Nicki a lot, too - and being missed in return. We've been having some good talks lately and are getting to communicate better I think. Tonight we talked about what we miss about one another, and it was nice to know that stuff. I am sure that missing Jeromy is heightening the fact that I miss Nicki a ton, too... but it really doesn't help anything.
It does help to think that we gave Jeromy a good send off. It also helps knowing that there is no other person on this earth that I'd rather see whisk Jeromy out of this country than Synde. Up until this weekend, I really didn't know her. I can finally say we've spent some time together, and I can honestly say that there is definetly no one more perfect for Jeromy than she.
It helps to know that Nicki and I really are trying hard to communicate and to understand one another. I hate fighting with her so much, and I have to say my heart has never felt so broken as it has in the last month. I've never felt such a connection to someone so fast as with Nicki, and while it hurts like nothing else in this world right now, I wouldn't trade what I've shared with her for a thing.
I have two people in my life that I miss right now, and I think that the way I am feeling right now is a testament to how much they mean to me. To Nicki - the most amazing woman I've ever known - I love you. To Jeromy - the most amazing hoser I've ever known - I love you. Always know that there are special places for you both in my heart.