Jan 05, 2005 22:33
Yeah. So I got an awesome call from Ben today.
He freaked out on me and MADE SHIT UP and told my now ex-boyfriend, that i'm freakin CRAZY about, that i called him psycho and pathetic and said that I dumped HIM.
Initially, Chaz said he needed a break to figure things out. I said ok. Of course I didn't take it well, but I took it as well as possible. And now all of this...
Ben is going to get what he's bargained for. Little does he know what's about to ensue. He's got a lot of 'splainin to do.
Chaz tried to tell me not to cry over him. I lose the most important person in my life right now, and I'm supposed to not cry? What kind of crap is that? And I wouldn't have to deal with any of this bullshit if it weren't for Ben.
Someone tell me what to do. I'm lost...
I just want it to all work out and I want to be with Chaz and I want to be fucking HAPPY. I want what I had. No drama.
I should never had apologized to Ben for breaking up with him... HE FUCKING DESERVED THE SHIT. FUCK THAT NIGGER.
Fucking mother god damn ass jesus fucking christ bitch cunt!