CC - Kathryn front
Long, long, LONG day. I barely remember this morning.
Good part is we've gotten to spend some time with Dominick today.
Feeling switchy, so trading off to Katie.
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Katie -
I think switching is way easier with me holding front most of the time. I'm able to actually take front when I need or want to, which is a nice change.
I feel a little weird today and I'm not sure why. I think just feeling displaced. It's not so much like specific things. I still feel super in love with Dominick but part of me feels kind of stupid because he's had so much time with Kathryn now. But I know.. and she knows.. that I feel a lot more about him just because my capacity to feel is greater. She feels as much as she can, so it's not fair to measure that way. We both feel as much as we can. I can just feel more. And she wants him to have access to that, and I obviously want to be able to experience that with him. I just sort of feel like.. the consolation prize or something. I don't know. It's weird. Like.. Dominick didn't know about Kathryn when we got together and maybe if he had, he would have rather been with her than me. And like maybe it would have been better for her to be able to calm down and remain out front. She doesn't want to be, though. She really is more content behind the scenes and she's just tired.
I'm kind of tired, too. I want to rest a lot tomorrow.