Er, hello ...
I'm Lucy (yes, named after C. S. Lewis's character and Aslan's friend.)
When I heard that Wittgenstein was having words with the positivists, telling them that no, the noumenal things that didn't have words WERE the important things, I believed him. It made sense, and everything I knew pointed to the truth of that idea. But I didn't know how that felt, except in tiny little grains of unspeakability, until this weekend, when I finally claimed a call that's been probably twelve or fifteen years in the making (that is, most of my life.) It's strange how God makes the dreams come true that I've had for so long I thought those longings were just the way I was.
So that's what I'm on the edge of: saying yes to fear and trembling, because the fear was nothing compared to the pain of saying no. Freed from one fear into another. Awakened and new, the bits of who I had let myself become crumbling off like eggshell.
... I promise I'm not always this abstract (though I admit I often am). Really Important Life Events In The Life Of Me: I graduated from college about a month ago, I got back from Annual Conference (UMC, Missouri) yesterday and it was SO AWESOME, I'm writing a book (sort of), and in a few weeks I'm going to have a Real Job Doing Ministry At A Church (music, youth, care.) I like symbols and alternative worship.
SO HI.
When I heard that Wittgenstein was having words with the positivists, telling them that no, the noumenal things that didn't have words WERE the important things, I believed him. It made sense, and everything I knew pointed to the truth of that idea. But I didn't know how that felt, except in tiny little grains of unspeakability, until this weekend, when I finally claimed a call that's been probably twelve or fifteen years in the making (that is, most of my life.) It's strange how God makes the dreams come true that I've had for so long I thought those longings were just the way I was.
So that's what I'm on the edge of: saying yes to fear and trembling, because the fear was nothing compared to the pain of saying no. Freed from one fear into another. Awakened and new, the bits of who I had let myself become crumbling off like eggshell.
... I promise I'm not always this abstract (though I admit I often am). Really Important Life Events In The Life Of Me: I graduated from college about a month ago, I got back from Annual Conference (UMC, Missouri) yesterday and it was SO AWESOME, I'm writing a book (sort of), and in a few weeks I'm going to have a Real Job Doing Ministry At A Church (music, youth, care.) I like symbols and alternative worship.
SO HI.