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No you’re not hallucinating; I’m actually updating this thing. I said when I started this; I’m no Toby and I wasn’t going to let it take over my life. But since it has been awhile; here are some important things to consider:
- I’m back in the apartment. It feels beyond weird but I’m doing it for Ellie’s sake. She felt abandoned. Why can’t I just move on and let that girl go already? Love sucks.
- Work is crazy! Emma is keeping me from going completely insane. I wonder what would have happened if I had stuck with her. Guess I screwed that up completely.
- Hanging out with Ashley a bit. She’s pretty cool; and awesome with the marshmallows. Weird that we always seem to find each other when we’re vulnerable.I wouldn't want to be where she is on this whole Sully/Spinner mess. Although now maybe Sully will realise how it feels to be the other guy.
- Jess & I caught up and really talked for the first time in forever. I understand now how much I hurt her; how it looked to her when I ran back to Ellie. I hope now she realises that she meant a hell of a lot to me too. It was weird, she’s been putting on this brave front but deep down she’s hurting heaps. When I asked her about Toby she looked distracted, like she was hiding something. I hope everything is okay there.
Yep I’m boring. Jay, Spinner - Guys night is needed urgently.