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so i haven't written in this thing in two days past a year hah!. well, i truly need to update my profile thingamabobber because i can't read a damn thing and it looks really lame. could use a pick me up. speaking of pick me ups....i'm coming home from Colorado Thursday....drinking? yummm.
i had a long talk with Karen today after bawling my poor little eyes out. turns out that she's just an older version of me. she is what my life is going to be in fifteenish years. which isn't horrible, she is a very overall caring person. has a great outlook on life and takes care of herself.
i'm thinking about moving into my grandma's house or something. Karen inspired me to get away from the crap my family has gave me. whatever. i'll figure it out. therapy on Friday, maybe he will have some good ideas of what i could possibly do with my life. i mean i can't keep living how i am, miserable in my own house. feeling like an absolute prisoner. it's horrible. and i hate it. it doesn't make me feel any better about any of the depression thing and it definitely does not help my self esteem and overall aspect of living. hopefully change will come and it will come soon.
i had a long talk with Karen today after bawling my poor little eyes out. turns out that she's just an older version of me. she is what my life is going to be in fifteenish years. which isn't horrible, she is a very overall caring person. has a great outlook on life and takes care of herself.
i'm thinking about moving into my grandma's house or something. Karen inspired me to get away from the crap my family has gave me. whatever. i'll figure it out. therapy on Friday, maybe he will have some good ideas of what i could possibly do with my life. i mean i can't keep living how i am, miserable in my own house. feeling like an absolute prisoner. it's horrible. and i hate it. it doesn't make me feel any better about any of the depression thing and it definitely does not help my self esteem and overall aspect of living. hopefully change will come and it will come soon.